GREY.

2006-06-15T23:17:00.000+08:00

while im gg off t get away frm de busy mugging life and sort out my thoughts, im gg t leave my blog t rot.

t those out there who read my blog, awww so sad you cant read abt my life anymore. i know you wldn't care, but i just don't want those sickening assholes out there t judge me using YOUR standards. my life is out of bounds t you.

i don't care whether you are those who read my blog just cos you're bored, or you're one of those who wna find out how bad im living my life, or those who genuinely care for me. too bad, i can't be your source of entertainment anymore. for those who participated in my life but you're just one passing shadow t me, well all i hv t say is WE ARE 2 DIFFERENT PERSONS.

thank you for your patronage.

2006-06-09T01:02:00.000+08:00

no more distractions in my life.
im stamping all of them out.
im concentrating on my STUDIES and HOCKEY.

studies: im promising myself that i'll hv interest in de subjects im studying, and not give up halfway. although i told myself that i hv t hv fun during my 2 yrs in AJ, de primary purpose of me studying is t get EXCELLENT GRADES.

hockey: although trngs nowadays are getting more and more distasteful and annoying, and im rly dreading trng now, i still love hockey. hockey's gna be an impt part of my life frm now on, so i'll just concentrate on getting into 1st 11 :)

THERE'S NO MORE PLACE FOR RUBBISH IN MY LIFE. IM GIVING UP WHAT I HV RIGHT NOW, AND I SHLD HV DONE THAT LONG AGO.

2006-06-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

these few days i had real fun eating breakfast with toy every morning since monday. haha, it's almost becoming a habit. but oh well, BONDING. =DD monday, we met at amk central and ate mos. aft which, we knew we were gg t be late for econs lecture, so we just skipped. went t de library, intending t revise econs. but i slept! hahah, whatever. then we were late for trng. toy and i gave some v v v lame excuse t ms tay as t why we were late. im surprised she believed it. just as well, hahaha.

yesterday, i was late for our breakfast date. it wasn't on purpose, like duh. i was supposed t mt rae and toy at 0745, but i woke up at 0745. first time this is happening. i had t treat those 2 a cup of milo each, MAN. aft de lectures, my class went t ms sabariah's hse for lunch cum lesson! her cooking is rly superb man. laksa and chicken rice, YUM YUM! her daughter is just sooooo pretty and cute. but too bad, she was kinda scared of us. wanted t bribe her w xuefen's mars bar, but we failed terribly. hahaha. and it was rly weird having lessons at ms sabariah's hse. but i don't mind having more of these!

had breakfast date w toy AGAIN, haha. we slowly walked frm amk central t aj, and in de end we were late for maths lecture. so heck, we just skipped de lecture and went t de sch library t study. it's like de 2nd lecture i skipped in this wk. power man. aft which, i went for de physics lecture. but de thing is I DON'T TAKE PHYSICS! i just go for fun lor. stayed in one corner, reading reader's digest and listening t mp3. i tell ya, it's a real pleasure man. thus for trng, de 4 of us plus yanling were late. ms tay said we are t run our 3 rounds aft trng, but i guess she forgot and we didn't bother telling her. however, i compensated for de 3 rounds =DDD

2006-06-04T22:27:00.000+08:00

im irritated. this procession of lighted trucks and such just had t travel past my hse. and they were making a hell lot of noise. like those opera kind of music?? CHIANG CHIANG CHIANG? oh please, shut up.

im feeling v v whiney now. im not feeling de way i shld, like i feel gd cos i hv sth GOOD t look forward t. like there's still sth that wld make me happy, and i know that it's gna happen. but now, IT ISN'T. it just isn't gna happen. and my heart feels real heavy now.

2006-06-04T14:59:00.000+08:00

hello june!! as much as i like you, but why did you hv t come so soon? your arrival means that i hv t mug like mad. ah crap. im just talking nonsense.

i suddenly miss my hockey babes so much. it's been a week since i met them!! oh man. de 3 of them are like in camp, leaving me all alone. so sad right. but they're back!! im so happy. =DDD

i guess that i just hv t trust de ppl arnd me MORE.

youyin, if you're reading this, i just wna say im so so so sorry t forget when's your bday, hahaha what kind of friend i am. lousy right? but don't worry, i wont forget this day EVER. and im so excited abt our date this coming thurs!! :))

shld i cut my hair like REAL short? like short till i cant tie up at all. im always having this urge t do that.

2006-05-31T13:15:00.000+08:00

i don't know why i did THAT this morning. i was just being crazy. YOU ARE TOO.

hahahaha.

2006-05-29T10:52:00.000+08:00

hello hello morning! i just finished bathing, de second time in de morning hahaha. i just ran 2.4 in sch!! and im so glad i did it under 14 mins, k im lousy but still. tsk. thanks t my hockey babes, i din give up! cos toy and i went for breakfast earlier in de morning, we ate bak chor mee somemore. DAMN FULL! and aft i ran, i rly rly felt like vomiting and my stomach hurts like mad. so im back here at home t get some pills and bathe.

i think i better rush back t sch. my hockey babes (kaifong, rae and toy) are waiting for me back in sch. tata!

2006-05-29T00:40:00.000+08:00

this video brought back a lot of memories, BACK IN PRI SCH. haha, my class performed a dance t this song, and i rly enjoyed myself back then. i rly rly miss 6A1!! i miss holy! :((

and we used that a-niu's song, dui mian de nu hai kan guo lai for a boy-girl dance as well. dammit hilarious! and i rmbred i was de tallest among de A1 girls who danced. NOW? haha, one of de shortest. it's alright, it's perfectly alright t be short =D

there's trng tmr, and we're wearing shinguards now. oh crap, my shinguards STINK LIKE HELL. cos i kept them in de plastic bag since our last trng w de j2s? haha, that was LONG LONG ago.

2006-05-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

IM SICK AND TIRED OF LOSING STUFF.
CAN MY STUFF JUST MAGICALLY POP OUT SOMEWHERE??
I HATE THIS.

2006-05-26T13:08:00.000+08:00

[VERSE 1]
For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan
But why are you making this drag on so long
(i wanna know) I'm sick and tired of this silly games
(silly games)
Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[VERSE 2]
I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you inner state
(inner state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[BRIDGE]
Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

[CHORUS 2X]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

2006-05-26T11:50:00.000+08:00

i did not go t sch tdy, and it wasn't planned!! just that i ate keropok last night, and now im having a rly bad sore throat. and tdy's de last day of sch mah, so MIGHT AS WELL don't go t sch. ahaha.

just as well, i can stay at home t catch up on my hw, that is if i hv de motivation t. (:

2006-05-25T20:59:00.000+08:00

went t de hockey finals yesterday! and vj won!! im happy for joleyn, cos she's so damn worried beforehand. hahaha. and de rj guys team won! they're rly damn gd. esp no 12!! he's damn cute and his ball skills are WHOA.

tdy had bio practical, but tdy's practical was v v interesting! it was t insert this plasmid into de bacteria cells so that they are able t glow. de plasmid contains some gene lah, damn cool. it's de same gene which enables fireflies t glow at night. hahah, but yanting and i messed up our whole setup. we weren't supposed t add de LB until we incubate de bacteria cells, but we added before that! and we were damn happy when ms leow said that our samples are gna be thrown away. de rest of de class were damn sad!! this is so ironic lah, ahaha.

i rly don't feel like gg t sch tmr. serious. we shall see.

2006-05-23T20:45:00.000+08:00

i rly hate tuesday. im not having monday blues, cos im rly loving mondays now! cos i end at 1245, which is de earliest in de week. and tuesdays suck! cos i hv afternoon pe frm now on. i din go for last wk's afternoon pe cos i thought im STILL excused frm afternoon pe. but voila! ms tay said that i must go for afternoon pe! why can't she tell me earlier. now i hv t do 2 makeup pe. wth. this sucks.

tmr's hockey finals!! vj VS sa. it cld hv been AJ.

'sth fresh and lovely wants t enter your personal life, but first you nd t make room for it. sweep away some old patterns. get rid of any mental junk. it's time t dump de old. WELCOME DE NEW.'

2006-05-21T12:49:00.000+08:00

i have no courage at all.
i do not even dare t do it.
im just a weakling.
im just too scared t face loneliness myself.
im scared t be all alone.

nobody loves me
everybody hates me
im gna eat some worms

all those facade,
are nth but passing scenes.
what seems t be is not what it is now.
im giving up.
or am i?

2006-05-21T11:08:00.000+08:00

tdy's sunday. hmmm, and tmr's week 10. v fast huh?

we had mass civics on fri, and that day's talk was about COURAGE. it rly struck me that im actually a not v courageous person. courage is not solely abt confidence. it's abt whether are you willing t take de first step onto de road less walked by ppl. aft that, toy and i stayed back in sch, cos we din wna go watch de bball finals and rush back for trng. we went t de reading room t study, and it was v v empty!! amanda joined us cos she didn't finish her newspaper commentary, haha. when there were only toy and me in de reading room, WE HAD SEX. hahaha, jk. we took some real stupid photos.

oh, this wasn't taken in de reading room. it was taken last sat during our last trng. this is our signature pose, ahaha! acting les, and it looks like!! toy seems t be enjoying herself.

taken when de both of us are lying down on de table.i was too shy, awww.

i like this pic!! we look so spastic.

toy's raping me!! k, this is soooo lame.

yest, went t town t do pw. yeah, then went t walk abt town. it's been a real long time since i've stepped into town. haha, im like a mountain tortoise. bleagh. andrea wanted t watch de child, but it wasn't out yet, so they said go watch de voice. haha, no thanks. but i cldn't make it as well. at night finally got t watch da vinci code!! DAMN INTERESTING. watched it w jiemei, and i know that he confirm will hv a lot of qns t ask de.

im having a crave for bk's mushroom swiss!! mmmms. but anyways im gg t eat w my sis! :DD

2006-05-18T23:37:00.000+08:00

i lovelovelove this song.
it brings back lots of memories.
when i was a part A.
part A. de start of my ncc journey.
UNFORGETTABLE.

2006-05-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

everyone is so damn sick. almost half of my class is sick. like HUH. urgh. my throat hurts like hell and it's so dammit dry.

YESTERDAY WAS DAMN EXCITING. went down t tp stadium t support de vballers for de finals. and ajc won!! first place!! this is so damn cool. everyone was screaming their hearts and lungs out for de vball guys team. woohoo. de fight btwn aj and tj was sooooo intense. i was so scared when aj was behind tj. de vballers were rly damn cool! haha, just hope that there'll be a holiday for de whole sch cos de vball won de first place. tmr's bball's finals, then if THEY WIN, double holidays!!

im so lagging behind my hw. and im desperately trying t finish that huge pile over there. and im beginning t enjoy doing hw (why am i not fooled by myself). jiayou jiayou jiayou!

sa won rj, and vj won nj. vj's win was expected i guess, but sa's win?? haha, it came as a surprise t me. but too bad rj. guess de loss served as a wakeup call t them not t be too smug. means, sa and vj will be in de finals. COOL. joleyn that girl is so scared, just cos sa won rj. but vj's v v strong too! so dear joleyn if you ever see this entry, must hv confidence in yourself k? shall see you at delta nxt wed!! =DD

2006-05-16T20:00:00.000+08:00

im feeling v v terrible right now! im having a sore throat yet agn. and im scared a fever will follow. that's what always happen, as concluded by xuefen and me. MAN, i still hv pe tmr, 5 items somemore. what crap. urgh. aj pe teachers are so dammit strict w de napfa. your chin die die must go over de bar, before they count as one. back in cedar, i rmbr like anyhow do also can do a lot. and i wna go support de vball match tmr!! so exciting, agnst tj. and it's za's bday!! what an exciting day tmr is. :DD

urgent and impt.
v v impt.
urgent.
not urgent and not impt.

2006-05-15T22:08:00.000+08:00

tdy's been a weird but GREAT day.

we had our v last match of de season this morning. agnst cj. we just had t win this match. charles said that he cldn't lose t cj's coach. know what he said t cj abt aj? "DON'T MAKE A BAD TEAM LOOK GOOD." now he shld go eat his own words man. what a bastard. toy's mum bought de whole team a cup of milo and sausage mcmuffin each!! she's so darn nice. haha, charles had been 'pestering' toy for parents' support grp, since that day when toy's father bought us all packet drinks aft one particular trng.

had our v 1st formal trng w de j1s. i went t de trng with mixed feelings. i know that i must be able t bond well w de new j1s, but on de other hand, i don't wna trn w them cos de feeling is TOTALLY different frm trng w de j2s. there's just sth missing. JUST THAT STH. i know i shldn't compare them w de j2s, but i just can't help it. ya know, just that part of me rly want t trn w de j2s instead. it was so fun trng w them! argh, they are just a bunch of real nice and funny ppl t hang out with. i rly hope that aj hockey girls 05-06 will stay united tgthr as a team, even though we won't be playing hockey as a REAl team anymore. i think we will. ((((:

wish #7: t be able t open up and talk t de new j1s, instead of grumbling how it wld hv been if we were trng w de j2s.

2006-05-14T20:49:00.000+08:00

i hate friendster. i can't seem to post pics forever. WTH.

wish #3: t have lots and lots of money so that i'll be able t buy a lot of snacks.
wish #4: t still hv de passion for ncc. yes, this is so v impt.
wish #5: t know that someone (maybe A LOT of someones) out there cares a lot for me!
wish #6: T UPLOAD PICS ONTO FRIENDSTER. DAMMIT.

2006-05-14T18:52:00.000+08:00

i rly had a lot of fun for de past 3 days, i din even complete any of my hw! this is so annoying. i planned out a timetable for myself t follow, but wahahaha. i suck.

went t do pw at oldham hall. de hostel is dammit nice lah. i rly like it there. de only thing i don't like is that de way de students collect food is so ncc. must take plate then de aunties and uncles pile de food for you. yah, it's de only convenient way, but somehow i just don't like it that way. grrrs. aft that went t meet fiona, nicholas, zul, fahmi and thinesh for dinner. thinesh's treat! :))

on sat had our v v last trng w de seniors! so sad right. de new j1 guys just had t come t delta and trn w us!! damn irritating. i thought they were trng in sch. eeyer. aft that we all went out t marina sq. ate pizza hut, and we went t play pool. i won rae!! hahaha, but she's v v pro despite she just learnt how t pool. kf and i went arnd ms t shop like nobody's business! as in, we walkwalkwalk. she bought this EXPENSIVE pouch frm projectshop and it's so not worth it. it's nice no doubt, but not worth it. hahaha. i finally bought my shorts frm zara!! happy happy.

and tdy. tata, i slpt like nobody's business. stupid lah. i was thinking of RESTING a while, but it ended up into a v v long rest.

tmr's our last match. last match for aj. we must win!! cos we shldn't lose, by right. crossing my fingers!!

2006-05-12T23:13:00.000+08:00

it's hard for aj hockey t get into de semis now. we lost THAT crucial match agnst nj. it was no doubt frustrating and v v disappointing, but i rly think that de team rocks. cos of de j2s. i wld nvr hv enjoyed myself so much and hv so much passion for hockey if not for de girls. they rly made every trng worthwhile! it's just that we don't hv de lucky star shining on us. just our luck. like all those hell-of-a-time trngs, they were terrible yet we all pulled through tgthr as a team. although we didn't get into de semis, just as well. we hv each other, and that is what matter. ((((:

I LOVELOVELOVE AJ HOCKEY GIRLS.

im scared. im scared that i can't bond w de new j1s. like you know, i have depression. i can rly don't talk if i don't feel like it. and i'll rly blank out at times. ppl will find me weird. ah crap. i just hope that we'll hv de same fighting spirit as de j2s. get into de semis and not disappoint de j2s!!

tmr's de last trng w de j2s. gna rly treasure tmr's trng. aft which we're gg out!! so fun lah. either pool or bowling, both of which i haven't play for ages man.

de defeat yesterday made me think back of those ncc times. i dono why also. think back of de 4 yrs i went through as a cadet + a CSM. it wasn't easy at all. when i was a cadet, how i looked up t my seniors and all. how i wish i cld be like them one fine day. how i wish im able t command everyone. yes, i've achieved that. but de time as a CSM is definitely v short. it's like WHOOSH, and now im an EX-CSM. sad sad sad. and i realised sth. it's rly v tough being de 2nd fiddle. ie de ASM. it's like you might as well aim for de top most position right? yet you're like de 2nd best. it can be qt frustrating at times. i'll nvr know de feeling, and im scared. i can finally understand how maziah felt in de past.

TO MAZIAH: if you're reading this, i wld rly wana thank you for being my ASM. i wldn't hv done my part as a CSM w/o you. you're like my rly capable assistant. like you know, im a scatterbrain and im not as calm and composed like you. im like so lousy when compared t you! you're so so so organised and such. you were always beside me, to accompany me through all those tough times. always w me t 'argue' w de teacher officers. and my temper is bad. i shoot my mouth at times, which you don't. im so lucky i hv you as my ASM, and thank god we worked well tgthr. otherwise i wldn't be able t answer t de ex-specs and all. IF we rly got de best girls' this yr, it's all rly cos of you maziah. you rock CEDAR NCC so much, and you're de best ASM i've ever seen. :DD

ncc has been a part of my life for 4 yrs. it rly rocked my life. although i had a lot of ups and downs during this 4 yrs, im not regretting it. im missing all de times when my pltnmates and i had t stand so straight and smart in pltn form, when we all had t cheer so loudly that de whole sch must echo, when de whole pltn had t hold it in pumping position when we did sth wrong, when we did our C&C tgthr, when we learn all those drills, when we came tgthr and got promoted as specs. although de pltn was rly splitted when we took over, im still v happy that all of us rly commit ourselves t trn de cadets t de best of our abilities. but im rly sad that our pltn is not bonded at all, and there's still some rivalry among us. :( i didn't do my job as a CSM well. i failed terribly. i wasn't at all a gd example t de cadets. i regretted not performing my job well. CRAPSHIT.

this is a super emotional entry. i'll nvr delete this away.

2006-05-08T21:45:00.000+08:00

are you rly gone?
i doubt so.
you'll always be here.
for me?
NAHHH.
i just want your presence felt.

WISH #1: to stop being so forgetful and keep losing things. i'll lose myself sooner or later.
WISH #2: to win IJ 12-0 for tmr's match!

that's all for now. i will come up w more wishes, cos i know i hv A LOT. i know im greedy, but pls make my wishes come true.

2006-05-07T00:34:00.000+08:00

i rly despise myself.

my cousin came ovr t my hse, and he was using de notebook. then he saw my pi draft (dammit). he had a lot of things t say abt my pi! that idiot. he wrote this EDITED version of my pi. and his eng is damn pro lah. i still rmbr he got c5 for his o levels, BUT got A for gp. isn't he great? i beat him in psle and o lvls. and my auntie said i must beat him in a lvls. but tell me how t? how t get 7 As?? he's like de 2nd top scorer of nyjc PLEASE FOR GOD'S SAKE.

2006-05-06T22:15:00.000+08:00

the cost of manufacturing one crumpler bag is $8.50. de cost of one crumpler bag is $100 over. get de equation?

tdy's trng was crazy. aft pitch frm 4 to 6, we had physical. at de track near de pitch at ccab. man, de track brings back horrible memories man. i alrdy hv this fear for it, stupid me. by de time physical ended, all of us were super super shagged. when i walked de overhead bridge, my legs were damn wobbly! crap, i think im like lousy in my physical fitness. how am i gna get 12 mins for my 2.4? impossible pingsiew, impossible.

my stomach is making funny noises. argh. pls don't let me hv a stomach upset.

tdy's polling day! damn interesting lah. i bet pm lee hsien loong's heart is gna fall out any moment. this GE is v v v competitive, and it's like de v 1st time im so concerned abt de elections. wahahaha. my hse void deck was used as a polling stn. then when i was gg for trng, i wanted t take a pic of de stn using my hp. haha, k im so dumb. i can't even see a single thing for goodness sake. but i can't possibly go INSIDE de stn and take right. but it's so cool lah. k, im talking nonsense.

i nd t get my commentaries done! urghh. this is so torturous. i nd 10 by nxt wed, and im only done w 3.

2006-05-05T23:19:00.000+08:00

MONDAY
kai, toy and i went out t study!! and it was not so successful, hahaha. what do you expect right. we were like gossipping, and did a 22-sided love triangle! it was so fun lah.

TUESDAY
i finally went dwn t watch de guy's final match!! cos de previous matches, i wasn't free i guess. i ponned pw and maths, and de teachers are like my pd tutor and her buddy?? i was so scared they'll like find out. i mean like duh, they will. but miraculously, they din even ask abt my absence!! damn heng lah. de guys lost!! which is like qt sad, cos this means that they won't be able to make it into de semis. guess it's like THE END.

WEDNESDAY
match agnst mi! this was one real exciting one. i cld almost feel my heart missing a beat qt a few times, when mi was so close t scoring. but eventually we drew w mi, 0-0! woohoo, like rj and nj drew w mi o-o as well. this shows that DE SCORELINE DOESN'T REFLECT ANYTHING. aft that kai, toy, rae and i went t study! can you believe it, we're becoming muggers. but it was cos we have phy (although i dont hv) and econs tests. and this time, it was qt productive! i feel so proud. :DD

THURSDAY
kai din come t sch tdy! aww, act i don't miss her at all hahahaha. but anyways our study date was cancelled, cos everyone was so tired, we just had t go home and rest.

TDY
de chem cls test was crap, de econs test was shit. basically that's it. had trng, was qt fun. esp de last part. toy told me beforehand that she was gna pur water on huifen, so she's gna run away oand wait for rae and i at de foyer. then she poured and she ran away w/o her shoebag! being de nice person i've always been, i took for her. then i suggested t huifen that we shld put de hockey balls in toy's shoebag! huifen took revenge and PLACED ALL OF DE BALLS INSIDE TOY'S SHOEBAG. she damn power lah. and when i gave toy her shoebag, she knew there was sth inside. i told her and she refused t take it! it was dammit heavy lah. imagine 17 hockey balls inside a shoebag. but in de end, de 3 of us shared de load! hockey girls are just so nice. ((((:

it's now or never-

2006-04-30T21:55:00.000+08:00

everyone seems t be mugging.
every one but me.
de secondary sch students are having their mid-yrs now.
hence they're like mugging like mad.
suddenly i feel so happy cos i don't have mid-yrs at this v moment.

REALITY CHECK: manymanymany common tests in wk 7 & 8. plus matches. plus mid-yrs in term 3. congrats!! (((:

whoa, best.
hence toy, kf and i are gg on a study date! (maybe rae too)
like FINALLY.
we're so gna mug.
muahahaha.

2006-04-30T09:16:00.000+08:00

In kindergarten your idea of a good friend was the person who let you have the red crayon when all that was left was the ugly black one.

In primary one, your idea of a good friend, was the person who went to the washroom with you and held your hand as you walked through the scary halls.

In primary two, your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you stand up to the class bully.

In primary three, your idea of a good friend was the person who shared their lunch with you when you forgot yours, you left on the bus.

In primary four, your idea of a good friend was the person who let you copy the social studies homework that you forgotten to do the previous night.

In primary five, your idea of a friend was the person who saved a seat on the back of the bus for you.

In primary six, your idea of a friend was someone who comforted you and lent their shoulder to you when you received your PSLE results.

In secondary one, your idea of a friend was the person who helped you to pass the ''love letter'' to your crush/stead.

In secondary two, your idea of a good friend was the person who comforted you when you broke up with your boy/girl friend, saying that the person is not even worth of your tears.

In secondary three, your idea of a good friend was the person who would come over to your house and help you decide on which clothes to wear on your first date, although he/she had her date waiting for him/her.

In secondary four, your idea of a good friend was the person who would help you in the "O" levels' examination when you had chicken pox and on the examination day, you recovered but your friend had the disease and had to stay home for a week.

Now, your idea of a good friend is still the person who gives you the better of the two choices, holds your hand when you're scared, helps you fight off those who try to take advantage of you, thinks of you at times when you are not there, reminds you of what you have forgotten, helps you put the past behind you but understands when you need to hold on to it a little longer, stays with you so that you have confidence, goes out of their way to make time for you, helps you clear up your mistakes, helps you deal with pressure from others, smiles for you when they are sad, helps you become a better person, and most importantly lovesyou!

2006-04-30T08:38:00.000+08:00

i feel so guilty. i was supposed to be online yesterday night to discuss gpp with my grp. but instead, i slept!! wth. what's wrong with me man. gosh.

how i wish that i'll be a super human-being so that i won't slp. in this way, i'll be able to FULLY utilise my 24 hrs a day. i can use my slping time t complete lots of stuff.

i missed central meeting yesterday. again. they said that those who weren't able t make it must must give an excuse letter, otherwise they will be severely punished. i think this is so crap. heard frm fiona that only half of de 51st intake went. like wth. de meeting is for them k. then i dono what they talk abt lah. fiona din tell me much.

yesterday's trng was v vigourous. as in not de drills and everything, but it's de fact that we all had t trn from 8 to 12. i guess im lousy that's why i feel so damn shag, and i fell aslp so early last night. CRAPS. im so frustrated.

2006-04-26T22:30:00.000+08:00

a week has passed! and it's been a real exciting one.

on fri, i went back w valerie they all for cedar sports' day! im so happy t see all those familiar faces. like, WHOA! haha, i ponned econs lecture just t go back. and ixora is de champion hse!!!!! how cool is that. i rmbr for de past 2 yrs, ixora was nvr top 3, cos de 2 sec 4 classes (ie 4P and 4I) are like dammit toot. trip sci classes what. nobody cld run. and when we graduated, de sec 3 classes in ixora were like 3H and some other class. heard that 3H got damn lot of trackers. hence ixora won! damn close fight btwn garde and ixora. rae was like so hoping garde wld win!

anyways we had FAMILY DAY on sat. and it was qt fun! my class did disco night, where ppl pay t go into nexus to DANCE. lol!! but most of de ppl pay just t go in and enjoy de aircon. kf's class rented de reverse bungee thingy. and a lot of ppl went for it i think. i mean, it's interesting isn't it? and what's de pt of having a funfair where de sch doesn't allow outsiders t come? super dumb lah. but it isn't as if ppl wana come AJ, haha. aft family day had self-trng, which was kinda slack. self-trng mah.

went out w my relatives and all (act is not a lot) t celebrate my cousin's and my bday! his bday was on 23 apr. he's like 2 yrs and 2 days older than me, hah. k, it's not funny. we went t this restaurant at turf city. tell ya, de food was dammit delicious! esp stir-fried crabs with salted egg. SUPERB man.

we had our v 1st match agnst jj on mon. and we won, but everyone was kinda affected as de game wasn't rly well-played. i can't say much cos i din play. yah. aft that, we all rushed dwn back t sch for AJ IDOL semi-finals! rae and i were so dammit kiasu, cos we were 1st in queue t go inside de audi!! and we kena interviewed, so embarrassing!! this shows de cedarian spirit! :D but anyways, jess and her friend were GOOD. de whole hockey team was shouting and screaming for 153.5! cool. and they got into de finals, so cool! we're gg down aft rj's match this fri for de finals, damn rush agn lah.

yesterday was my sweeeet SEVENTEEN. super old le!! grrrs. xuefen bought me this tiny cake, but it's de thought that counts! de whole class celebrated for me aft pw, cos we had champagne. damn cool lah. and jack videoed de whole celebration. a momento! :DD cldn't go dwn t support de guys yest, and they lost. that's sad. there's a slim chance of them getting into de semis, which mean that de only hope is on de girls' team. had trng aft sch, which is like horrible, cos i've not been working out (kk, im v v guilty). then de hockey girls celebrated for me!! so niceeeee. i shan't mention abt de present man. but anyways to those who wished me happy bday, THANKS SO MUCH FOR RMBRING MY BDAY. im rly v v touched, because this yr is rly different cos i've made so many more friends! be it de CLTs, hockey girls or my classmates. thanks ppl. ((((:

coincidentally, tdy's peisee's bday!! she's like my 'sis' cos i hv a lot of similarities w her. we both hv de same bag (that roxy one), same hp, same initials (LPS), our jersey numbers are like 25 and 26, and our birthdays are one day apart! how cool can that get man. de seniors tried throwing her onto de blue mat which was like full of puddles of water, damn funny lah! but anyways, before that charles gave us a talk, which made a lot of sense. a coach nt necessarily hv wonderful strategies and everything, but he must hv that ability t relate well t his team players. otherwise there'll be no way for de team t work well w de coach. de coach is like non-existent, ain't it?

2006-04-18T19:35:00.000+08:00

i hate tdy! so many bad things happened t me tdy!! what's wrong man. i officially proclaim tuesday as my unlucky day instead of thursday.

tdy was supposedly t be our 1st match of this season, against CJ. but it just so happened that it rained rats and mice tdy!! and there was lightning like every sec. de match had to be cancelled!! this is so sad. we were so prepared for de match, and this had t happen. i was hoping that de match will be postponed t tmr morning, then i can skip morning pe! but sadly, it din happen. :(

then we were stuck in de shelter opposite de grand stand for god-knows-how-long. we entertained ourselves by singing! i think that we hockey girls can join choir le. wahahaha. and that cheer which goes like this:......and there was a stream and de stream was on its way EH! and de moon shines bright in de clear blue sky and all was bright and gay! we modified it till it was so sick and wrong:....and there was charles and charles was on ms tay EH! damn gross lah. sounds SUPER wrong. and it wasn't on purpose!

and i saw my dear monkey and jieying at delta tdy! oh my gosh, aft oh-so-long, i finally get t see joleyn. i was darn happy lah! hugged her like anything. we got sth in common, we are metal mouths le!!

she looks funny lah! and she's still as cute as ever. omg, she's my darling monkey!! (((:

went out w dinner w kaifong, jess, hafizah, huifen, meiying and diana at lj aft that. and when we were abt t leave, this lj guy came over and gave diana a slip of paper. then he said that his collegue wana know her! my gosh, this is so cool lah. this just goes t show that hockey girls are chio! ahaha. or rather, aj hockey girls!!

on my way home, i took a bus. then when de bus is reaching my stop, i std up t make my way t de door. walking, walking, then de damned bus had t brake. i didn't hv de time to react fast enough (ie to grab onto de pole) and instead, i BANGED into de pole. as in, my left elbow lah. then there was this numbing effect!! damn pain lor. i thought i was gna be lame in one arm. but luckily, nicholas and my brother said it was alright. my god. this so suck lah. my arm is still aching. one more bad thing added t my list man.

and yet another one. i hv a mosquito bite on my feet! and it's at a place where when i scratch, i'll feel kinda ticklish. damn!! so idiot can.

SEE? there!!

oh oh. then in de mrt right. i std up t get out of de trn lah. den i heard sth dropping. i turned, then saw nth mah, so i left. when i came home, i found out that one side of my COFFIN earstud dropped off! it suddenly occurred t me that de STH was my ear stud. bloody irritated lah! i like that pair of ear stud so much. grrrs. that's why i say that TUES is dammit unlucky.

this is de pics i took during chem pre-spa:

this is de colour of de soln when i poured excess HCL into my titrated soln. my hands were too itchy. and this is de colour when i poured a bit of alkaline soln back into de soln:

see that bit of orange colour at de bottom? nice right! i can go be a chemist man :D

2006-04-17T22:12:00.000+08:00

countdown: arnd 16 more hrs to our v 1st hockey match!

im so excited. we all are, seriously. tdy's trng had been kinda relaxed, so that we won't over-exert ourself. jess gave everyone 'MY TOURNAMENT JOURNAL', so cute right! inside, there are de checklist, personal notes, resolutions, tounament details, individual matches and a little yet heartwarming msg frm her! she's so thoughtful. de journal's gna be a great help. and jess is really a great capt. she nvr fails to keep de spirits of de team high. and i'll nvr forget t bring any stuff agn cos i got her checklist! ((:

meiying, ms tay and ms toh wrote a msg to us as well. i tell ya, de feeling of receiving these carefully-written msgs is undescribable. this really shows our unity as a team. i really hope that AJ HOCKEY will make it till de very end. i know we will, SMILES!

there's a sickening boil on my left leg. again. DAMN IRRITATING. rmbred that time when i last had one. on my right leg. de whole thing swelled like a big mushroom, and in de end i had t go see a doctor t get rid of it. she poked de thing and blood+pus came out. imagine how gross was that. she gave some cream and stuff and ALL THAT COST ME ARND 50 BUCKS. just like that. cheat my money man. humph. im so gna squeeze that disgusting boil till it dries up.

and pls, don't buy nike shoes! they suck lor. de soles come off everytime. damn irritating. and i hv glue my shoes by tmr. grrrs.

we shall put on a tough fight that has nvr been seen. watch out man, cj. :DDD

2006-04-16T16:33:00.000+08:00

it's v v dark outside, looks like it's gna rain agn. and im at home pigging out. had a LITTLE nap just now, but when i woke up, i had a terrible stomachach. that's de result of eating too much and slping too much. hahahaha.

my chinese compo is still rotting on my table, shit. haven't had de urge to do it yet. maybe de urge will come at arnd 11pm tonight, when im abt t slp. great.

anyways, HAPPY BELATED BDAY APRIANI KARTIKA DRISTINGSIH! (did i spell your full name correctly?) im so sorry, but it kinda slipped my mind. haha, im so sorry. and you're so old le! SMILES-

i nd to practise my hits!! but there's nowhere for me to do that. unless i go t de void deck. but come t think of it, it's kinda illegal right? oh, i rmbred one thing. yest when i was on 13, i met diana on de bus! damn coincidental lah. but anyways, she told me that she, huifen and meiying were at de void deck practising hits. then this guy said that he was frm de town council or sth, and that de walls were just newly painted and shld not be dirtied. then de girls went home or sth. but hello! why can't we practise our hits? i mean, there's only a sign that there's no kicking of FOOTBALL against de wall, not hockey balls. crapshit.

2006-04-15T20:45:00.000+08:00

man, it's been a REAL long time since i blogged. my typing skills are getting rusty le, shit! de thing abt blogging is that i can get to practise my typing skills, serious! and it isn't as if many ppl are reading my blog. bleaghh.

anyways, de past week had been fun, not too bad, overall alright week. hahaha. on thurs, ms lee, my chem teacher, gave my class kinder surprise!! surprise surprise! haha, it's just that our class has been v v v merciless to her. as in, we don't even listen to her during tutorials, and i gave v v v sloppy work. and she herself knows that de class is not listening to her during lessons, that's de thing.

and also, ms leow, my bio teacher, gave us a big fat strawberry each! so nice right. it's cos de bio tutorial on last fri, we discussed abt strawberries. strawberries are actually flowers and not fruits!! amazing fact ain't it? my god, nature is just so fascinating. and i don't mind a bouquet of STRAWBERRIES, lol!

tdy had trng at delta. but basically, we had a match against rj. we lost, 3-1. but i really agree w de girls that it was a tough fight that we put up. really. de girls were all giving what they have. although de few of us din play, but we cheered de rest on. this really reflects on our team bonding. comp's in a few days time!! it's like a race against time. are we, de girls as a team, doing enough for ourselves as well as de team itself?? i mean, we shld not have any selfish thinking, and just think abt our own benefit. we fight as a team, we win as a team.

anyways, tmr's cheryl's bday!! and we celebrated it w her tdy. de whole bunch of us went swensens at crown prince hotel to eat. and i'm broke AGN!! crap. ate baked rice, drank lime supersoda and lots of ice-cream!! cheryl's mom's treat i think. so nice right! and we took lots of pictures. come to think of it, de manymanymany pictures i took with my friends using other's cam are not sent to me!! GRUMBLES- i want those pics man! i.e. MT OPHIR, CLASS PICS, HOCKEY PICS & RANDOM PICS.

im drinking lychee snowshake agn. ~~de last time i drank it was when i was real depressed.~~

i need more allowance to satisfy my stomach.

2006-04-06T20:36:00.000+08:00

1) New York City has 11 letters

2) Afghanistan has 11 letters.

3) Ramsin Yuseb (The terrorist who threatened to destroy the Twin Towers (in 1993) has 11 letters

4) George W Bush has 11 letters.

This could be a mere coincidence, but this gets more interesting:

1) New York is the 11th state.

2) The first plane crashing against the Twin Towers was flight number 11.

3) Flight 11 was carrying 92 passengers. 9 + 2 = 11

4) Flight 77 which also hit Twin Towers, was carrying 65 passengers. 6+5=11

5) The tragedy was on September 11, or 9/11 as it is now known. 9 + 1+ 1=11

6) The date is equal to the US emergency services telephone number 911. 9+1 + 1 = 11.

Sheer coincidence..?! Read on and make up your own mind:

1) The total number of victims inside all the hi-jacked planes was 254. 2+ 5 + 4 = 11.

2) September 11 is day number 254 of the calendar year. Again? 2 + 5 + 4 =11

3) The Madrid bombing took place on 3/11/2004. 3 + 1 + 1 + 2 + 4 =11.

4) The tragedy of Madrid happened 911 days after the Twin Towers incident.

Now this is where things get totally eerie:

The most recognized symbol for the US, after the Stars & Stripes, is the Eagle. The following verse is taken from the Quran the Islamic holy book: "For it is written that a son of Arabia would awaken a fearsome Eagle. The wrath of The Eagle would be felt throughout the lands of Allah and lo, while some of the people trembled in despair still more rejoiced: for the wrath of the Eagle cleansed the lands of Allah and there was peace." That verse is number 9.11 of the Quran.

Still unconvinced about all of this..?!
Try this and see how you feel afterwards, it made my hair stand on end:

Open Microsoft Word and do the following:

1. Type in capitals Q33 NY. This is the flight number of the first plane to hit one of the Twin Towers.

2. Highlight the Q33 NY.

3. Change the font size to 48.

4. Change the actual font to the WINGDINGS

2006-04-04T21:50:00.000+08:00

in de past, i used to derive pleasure frm de internet. now, i detest de net. it's a oh-so-stupid comment. i know, we can't live w/o de net, but is it really necessary to face a completely lifeless screen doing anything and everything BUT HOMEWORK? im becoming such a mugger. yeah man. but i admit that i can't survive 2 hrs just doing hw. i'll just fall aslp, just like how i did last night.

BIO SUCKS.

everyday is just a routine for me.
monotonous.
wonderful.

i'll love tues frm now onwards. cos sch's not ending at 1815 for me anymore!! :DDD im exempted frm afternoon pe, hence de early dismissal. life's not that depressing aft all, SMILES!

2006-03-28T23:36:00.000+08:00

Sherlock Holmes and Dr Watson go on a camping trip. After a good dinner and a bottle of wine, they retire for the night, and go to sleep.Some hours later, Holmes wakes up and nudges his faithful friend. "Watson, look up at the sky and tell me what you see.""I see millions and millions of stars, Holmes" replies Watson."And what do you deduce from that?"Watson ponders for a minute."Well, astronomically, it tells me that there are millions of galaxies and potentially billions of planets. Astrologically, I observe that Saturn is in Leo. Horologically, I deduce that the time is approximately a quarter past three. Meteorologically, I suspect that we will have a beautiful day tomorrow. Theologically, I can see that God is all powerful, and that we are a small and insignificant part of the universe. What does it tell you, Holmes?"Holmes is silent for a moment. "Watson, you idiot!" he says. "Someone has stolen our tent!"

You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life.You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you.
Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace.You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times.
At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.

What'>http://blogthings.com/whattempermentareyouquiz/">What Temperment Are You?

2006-03-28T22:08:00.000+08:00

if you have a sore throat and feel kinda terrible, it means that you're gonna get sick. proven and tested.

i missed sch today! shucks. de gd thing is that sch's ending at 1815 for me every tues, and i get to skip today. de BAD thing is, i missed de match against nj! toy said it's gonna be exciting. man, how exciting. i was practically rotting de whole day. sleepsleepsleep. FULL-TIME pig alrdy.

can someone pls enlighten me on how to download games onto that ridiculously expensive graphic calculator?

2006-03-23T20:47:00.000+08:00

i got my jerseys!! :DDD

25. woots.

i have an impulse to just give NCC up. it's taking TOO much of my time seriously. not that hockey isn't, but i have to remain in hockey. this is getting so damn annoying.

@#$%!@#$%!@#$%@#$%^#$%#$%^&#$%^&*!@$*(@#$%U#$%^&*#$%^&*(

I LOVE HOCKEY. I HATE TRNG.

2-sided ppl are totally f*uckingly impossibly detestable, thankyousoverymuch.

2006-03-20T21:48:00.000+08:00

i thought of you that night.
it hurts me so much,
that you ain't by my side.
i cried.
but no matter how,
you'll nvr know how much i need YOU.

like a fire without its flame.
a song without its soul.
a bird who's lost her wings.

~~i just hv to try to forget you.~~
~~i shall, i will, i must.~~

"you're afraid to face de truth. you're just putting on an act, but deep inside, you're scared to get hurt. your family is not too bad, they really support you. you have to let go sometimes. friends come and go. if you feel that someone beside you is betraying you, you shld let her go. there's nth to be sad abt. in de recent months, you've been hurt by your friend, such that you don't trust ppl easily anymore. you like someone for very long, but you're not doing anything abt it."
as quoted by this woman who came to my sch for some personality test.

i hate having feelings. i hate being emotional. i hate being myself.

2006-03-14T23:06:00.000+08:00

im so tired!! im gg to ophir, ONCE AGN. it's gonna be my 3rd time gg there. haha, stupid right. my cousin was like,"you are always climbing mt ophir." LOL!! damn funny. hope that it'll be nicer gg there as a clt, instead as a cadet or cadet spec. im gonna miss trng tmr and thurs. im so gonna miss out a lot. howwwww!! although trng's tough, but like DUH, they're so damn impt. i bet my ball skills gonna suck like anything once i go for trng on monday. i know! i shall bring my stick to ophir. HAHA. fiona can practise with me. SMIRKS.

i shall eat, sleep and dream of hockey. hah.

im in 15/06!! screams!!!! hooray man. some frm 15/06 1st 3 months stayed. SOME only. yeah. like kinda sad not de whole class stayed tgthr. but it's alright. cos i got xuefen! wahahahahaha.

PUMA hse. puma HSE. PUMA hse. puma HSE!

i hope i won't climb de mountain and just fall off and die. hah. i still rmbred de very 1st time i went ophir, arnd 2 yrs ago (wah, so long ago lah. im so damn old). i msged EVERYONE i know, informing them that im gg ophir, don't miss me too much, and MUST pray for me that i won't fall off de mountain. ahahahaha. so damn childish right.

i shall go pack my bag now. which is like 11:33 pm. congrats pingsiew. have fun packing your bag for de whole night, cos you're like so disorganised and de bag's not even one-quarter packed. well done. GRRRRRS.

2006-03-11T15:52:00.000+08:00

it's been a while since i updated. blogs are getting boring.

k, today has been a great day!! we played against teck whye sec, and we won!! 6-1. woohoo. but de opponents are like what, sec 1 and sec 2 KIDS? ahahaha. anyways i din really play much. just a while. at first charles asked me to take over shuwen, then my mouth literally dropped, aft which he chose rae to go instead. so YAHHHHH. cos i was really damn scared that i won't play well. but during de 2nd half, charles asked me, "do you have confidence now?" i did you know! i felt good, somehow. LOL.

de guys match was exciting. like how they moved, dribbled, tackled, yada yada. damn cool. damn fast. de whole game was so different from de girls' one. super duper agressive. it's like they don't have one specific position, they just run here and there and everywhere on de pitch.

had lunch w rae, pratas!! and i beginning to like indian rojak. can you believe that today is my first time trying indian rojak? damn TOOT right. hahaha. we gossiped a lot. seriously, i love gossip sessions. :D

i hate de aj uniform. like a dumb factory worker. i have a feeling i won't look good in THAT uniform. and it's REALLY goodbye to cedar uniform. gosh, reality is sinking in fast man.

2006-03-07T20:14:00.000+08:00

is joy a subset of happiness? i wonder.

2006-03-04T20:14:00.000+08:00

im in TERRA. eeyer. i wana be in traba. i don't wana be in terra man.

went for shopping w fiona yesterday!! qt fruitful for both of us. i finally bought my havianas slippers and i so love them!! damn nice lah. k, i shan't be so ego. wana find a bag, but couldn't find a suitable one. MAN. bought this stupid-looking-but-kinda-cute pencilcase. hehs. went to meet aprie, zul, fahmi and nicholas at amk macs. played this stupid game called truth or dare. then went to play pool. and i won 2 treats from nicholas!! i was damn accurate lah. i bet that fiona will lose to zul by 1 ball, and he said 3 balls. but in de end....act i forgot what was de result. anyways i won de bet. then fiona played with nicholas, i said she'll lose by 2 balls. she really did! i can consider being a fortune-teller man.

pitch trng today. 4 whole solid hrs! damn tiring. but i think i shouldn't be complaining since there were a lot of times i was slacking at one side. de j2s really trained damn hard. aft trng, charles were talking to us abt de shot corner and stuffs. he proposed a hockey night, where we just relax, chat, play pool or sth like that. i want!! POOL. but i just hope that it won't clash with my ophir trip, which i think most likely it will. SHUCKS. anyways, then i saw staff fad walk past us!! almost wanted to shout for her. ON IMPULSE. aft de talk, i went to find her. it's like de first time i saw her in shin guards and all. kinda weird. ahaha.

went for lunch with toy, kf and rae. we gossiped qt a bit, haha. i so love gossiping man. oh gosh, do i sound bitchy?

i was so dammit irritated on de bus ride home. de freaking bus was so dammit full, then i had to stand. this indian woman had to stand beside a seat, and she just refuses to move when de crowd moves. i was alrdy a bit pissed alrdy. then this woman came and stood behind me. i was carrying my turtle bag, so it was kinda bulky. so i was kinda sandwiched btwn that indian woman and de other woman. then i shifted to a postion that was so idiotically awkward. i was listening to my mp3, then THIS ANOTHER woman tapped hardly on my shoulder and squeezed her fat body past me. i was so angry!! i gave this super black face of mine. on top of that, another man came through and this CHUBBY woman pushed SO DAMMIT HARD against me to get across. CANNOT TAKE IT!!!!!! i almost shouted at them, when i realised i was wearing de cedar oac shirt. so fu*king angry can! so dammit KIASU. i hate singaporeans.

2006-03-03T11:43:00.000+08:00

i got into aj! kinda happy and satisfied. i shld be contented that i can stay in aj. YESSSSSS.

bought 'you're beautiful'. you know de collection of de love songs? it's not too bad. and im listening to TO BE WITH YOU. like over and over again. reminded me of de 50th CLT course video. and indirectly, CLT course. duh. i can't believe that de course is actually over you know. it was so long ago. though i had some really bad experiences, but de whole course was definitely memorable. BUT except some ppl.

my jersey number's 25! my birthdate. yeahhhh.

2006-03-03T00:27:00.000+08:00

watched de amazing race just now. im still so addicted to it. and seriously, all de all-guys team look like a gay couple. my gosh. esp BJ and somebody. so HAIRY. yayness, i have sth to look forward to every wed and thurs night. smiles!

it's march now. damn fast. and i was thinking that when will feb end. oac's tmr. and OALs can't go! that's ms leong's instructions. like so WTH. so dammit biased against our batch of OALs. i was still thinking of celebrating my sister's birthday during de camp. LOL.

posting results gonna be out in like less than 8 hrs. im not really feeling de tension eh. is that right? i dono. like 80% im gonna be staying in aj, unless sth happened. touch wood. somehow, im beginning to like aj qt a lot. hahaha. don't ask me why. nxt week's orientation. i so feel like not gg for it.

de bio DVD we watched today was interesting. abt puberty. but from a biological aspect, according to ms mani. LOL. de video showed ppl really naked. cos they wana show de difference btwn man and woman, adult and child. but ms mani censored those scenes!! she sat beside de projector, and when de "nice" scenes are showing, she'll cover de projector with de video cover. so funny lah!

think of SEX. what first comes to your mind when you think of this particular word?
come on, THINK!
well, you may be thinking, POSITION, NAKED BODIES, SENSUAL, BED, yada yada.
but de very last word you may be thinking is LOVE.
true ain't it?

2006-03-02T13:14:00.000+08:00

im gg for bio lecture now. watching a DVD! so fun man. hahahahahahahahaha.

i don't like xuefen. she bullies me.

2006-03-02T12:29:00.001+08:00

im like having econs now! haha. we're playing battleship in de comp lab. IT'S DAMN BORING.

today's de last day of sch for us. ms leong so kindly allowed us to skip sch tmr. hurray!! 3 cheers man. every teacher was like "good kuck for your results", "i'll miss you" yada yada. hahahaha.

okay, im really bored now. seriously. i suck at econs. I ROCK MAN. ((((:

hey guys! i really hope that you'll get de sch you want to go to. good luck and i love ya all!!

2006-02-28T18:11:00.000+08:00

i can't believe it
tell me im dreaming
that we are still "we"?

it was amazing
said you were lucky
that you found me

it was on a rainy day that we met
you didn't have a place to go
i said we just met, so let's go slow but no
you just told me to keep you from the cold

sorry i can't take it
why did you fake it
why did we kiss

and im just down
you left me with a note without a sound
i figured i must have been such a child
you'll nvr know how much i've been arnd
how my heart just frowns

if you're down
i'll be your teddy bear
i'll be your clown
i'll take you round and round and
if you don't mind, i could be your standing grnd
even if that means i'd drown

and baby, that'll be my one last vow.

2006-02-25T22:14:00.000+08:00

i bought CHARLIE AND DE CHOCOLATE FACTORY today!
woohooo. yeah man! im so darn happy. so gonna have fun tonight!! ((((:

de red colour of my hair is coming back. damndamn obvious lah. de dye my hairdresser used is so dammit powerful.

lester chee likes a girl! a cadet somemore. tsktsk. LESBIANISM!! "she never wear specs de... dunno her name leh... but very cute... hehe. "

DISCLAIMER: i hate guys so much that im considering becoming a lesbian.

im becoming so dark that my ah-ma said that i look like a malay. SHIT! sooner or later, i'll be looking like an indian. VANAKAM.

i hate school seriously. so sian. got tests somemore. bio and maths. freak lah. i hate bio. during bio prac last week, kena caught by ms mani for sleeping. i was so kuku lah. sitting in de first row and still dare to sleep. my friends all praised me. LOL.

charlie rocks.

random pics:

haha, this is so damn random. i was at yy's hse, trying on her SIA uniform. i dono how de pic was taken, seriously. so pro right. both of my hands are shown. so how was this pic taken??

this is my brother with his fractured arm. so poor thing right!

he's too shy. ahaha.

lester chee HUI MIN, acting cute.

me!! see that girl with braces? YEAH.

taken by fiona, on de day we went back to cedar for CNY's celebrations. so fake right? yeah, it's act one. hahahahahahaha.

2006-02-21T20:55:00.000+08:00

im swearing too much, i swear. guess who're de ones influencing me. NCC GUYS.

im so dammit tired. and there's training tmr. oh god.

2006-02-21T20:03:00.000+08:00

i think im so gonna be in trouble. i skipped sch on monday and tuesday just for camp feast. how on earth did i end up there man. and i dragged fiona with me there. kiah kiah.

booked in on sunday night. fiona and i met up with nicholas, fahmi and zul first, and aft that we went to play pool. im damn damn lousy lah. de rest are SUPER pros. lester came aft that, then de REAL pro came. i was de lousiest there man. then book into hq at 9 plus. wah lau, there were so little ppl there. and s1 was supposedly to be there by 9. but i don't see de s1 ppl! so irritating.

anyways, i was de alpha coy oc upperstudy. fiona was my understudy. then de 3 alpha pcs were fahmi, lester and nicholas. damn power lah! like throughout de 2 days, we really had fun and a lot of laughter. too bad zul is in bravo. under WWE again. haha. so sad for him man. de guys were being themselves, cos they were damn dirty-minded as usual. like what's new. had macs for supper for 2 consecutive nights. damn fattening lah! but in a way, i like having supper during camps.

i tell ya, ALPHA COY ROCKS MAN. we were always faster than bravo coy like almost every time. like moving from place to place. and for eg, we were supposed to collect de journals from de cadets. alpha coy had alrdy collected finish when thinesh asked for them. bravo coy's journals are like not even collected at all. HAHAHA. laughs evily.

on de 1st night, everyone's mood was damn bad. de atmosphere was so tensed up. so scary.

lester is fiona and my HAO JIE MEI. yeah man.

WWE attended de spore idols' audition and got in to de 2nd round. my god. she better not throw cedar's face.

rachel told me that training on monday was hell. looks that de hockey girls trained really hard. i feel damn guilty. westwood lost de match, that's why charles was crazy. that was rae's deductions, which i think it's so true.

i went to take mc just now aft we booked out. went to de polyclinic, but i had to wait fro 1hr and 23 min. siao ah. damn long lah. then went to raffles medical grp to get mc. told de doctor i had gastric flu, felt nauseous and bloated in de morning, which i really did. he prescribed me some medicine and de total bill was $29.60!! so freaking ex lah! 30 bucks know. i could have fully utilised that sum of money man.

i don't feel like gg to sch tmr. super sian-ded. im still in de camp mode.

2006-02-17T22:19:00.000+08:00

im so upset. my brother's injured. he fractured his arm. like OUCH. he was so weak, cos of de anaesthetic. he's so clumsy lah. my mum said he ran and tripped or sth like that. he's always injuring himself. and now he has a reason not to join rugby. hahaha. when i knew that he got injured, i was so depressed. i dono why. i mean, i don't really LOVE him know. but i guess it's in me that i really treasure him a lot. hey, he's my brother aft all. and im not that cold-blooded.

this incident reminded me of de time when me myself fractured my arm as well. way back when i was k1. haha, that incident was damn hilarious lah. i was riding on this HUGE bike in my auntie's hse. i was riding arnd de hse, and when i wanted to leave de balcony, de stupid bike's wheels couldn't go over that ledge. i lost my balance and FELL. damn stupid lah. guess my sis de only one left in de family who hasn't fractured her arm before. TOUCHWOOD!

i brought cadbury's boost to sch today. and i din eat. it melted! im so darn sad. this is on de wrapper. damn amusing. it's not de words. it's de length and elaboration on such a simple piece of chocolate.
smooth textured chocolate flavoured centre with crunchy biscuit pieces surrounded in caramel, all covered in cadbury dairy milk milk chocolate.

im down for camp feast. AGAIN! i told nicholas that i wana put my name down for pending. and he told me that thinesh squeezed me inside. WAH! i so wana strangle nicholas. cos fiona can't go in de end. WWE and sha going. think they're de only female clts going. how on earth am i gonna survive with them alone? i'll be squashed by wwe! and i can't really miss sch again cos of ncc. i mean, the last time i did, i was scrutinised k. like so WTH.

tmr's supernumerary selection. hockey pitch training too! but i guess im going for hockey. i mean, i really need to polish up my hits. guess i'll have no chance to hold a sword and become a contingent commander. man, im sad.

stayed back today to help revamp de hockey noticeboard. and it was kinda a success! rae and jess drew all de ppl in de team! except some guys. de guys are overpopulated, quoted by jess. haha. de cartoon ppl are all so cute know! then i have my mouth wide open showing my braces. beams! my picture's cute. i know ppl like lester will wana puke. hahaha. mel and i were in-charge of outlining and cutting out those ppl. we put in a lot of effort k! ((((:

btw i think rae and i can go for de sports trip to desaru! im so happy, yet scared as well. im scared of de training. man, it's gonna be tough. like duh right. we're like competing against de sports sch there. if let's say im confirmed going for this trip, and going ophir as well, im in msia from mon to sun during de march hols! power sia. but i think it's kinda cool. heehee.

2006-02-15T14:50:00.000+08:00

im feeling so darn bored now. it's a gloomy wednesday afternoon. and sch's starting tmr. im sadddd.

went out with fiona, weili and yy yesterday. eat, pool, shop, walk and home. that's it. hahahahaha.

i dislike de feeling of being betrayed. although it's not EXACTLY betraying me directly, BUT STILL. i feel sad. i shan't dwell upon that matter. it's life. and that's fate.

i have training later. i just hope it'll end early and it's a light one. i don't want another training similar to monday's, i'll die.

2006-02-13T22:19:00.000+08:00

im so darn tired!! training today was TOUGH. let me repeat, TOUGH. i felt like dying right there on de spot. it was de toughest training so far. but there's more to come. wow, so exciting ain't it! actually, im posing all these trainings as challenges. i mean, what's more fun than overcoming all these challenges and at de end of de day, i can proudly say " I'VE DONE IT! " that'll be sooooo cool. smirks-

i can't stand it! im so fat. and im constantly gorging myself with snacks every night. this is so wrong man. i shld just throw away all those leftover goodies from cny. they're tempting me like anything.

im kinda addicted to maple story! shit..die!! i was scolding my brother for being so addicted to that game and here i am, playing de game for almost de whole morning! man. i shld just ban myself away from de comp and STUDY. yes, study.

2006-02-12T23:47:00.000+08:00

~~what's done is done. nothing will change de fact. i shall just face up to de truth.~~

im not gonna blabber abt my results, whether im happy or sad or whatsoever, because it's OVER. O-V-E-R. i shall just get over with it. ms mani said that employers will only look at your A level results, not O level. so im so gonna have no life for de nxt 2 yrs. ppl, so don't blame me if i don't go for gatherings and stuff. cos i love studying.

anyways, i spent my whole weekend literally slacking. wana stay at home de whole day to watch vcds, but unfortunately, my sister has no vcds for me to watch! DAMN. but nonetheless, i went to watch movie w my auntie and cousin. CASANOVA. it's nice, go watch it! not-so-highly recommended, but it's not bad for a couple to watch on vday. hahahaha.

today, sunday! i went out w lovie cos she promised me a treat. ahaha. we went to her workplace, de asian kitchen. de food there is not too bad! we ordered like qt a lot of stuff, but luckily she has 25% discount. ahaha. i like de xiao long bao there!! so we ate like what, 12 of them?? we were so dammit full after that. went walkwalk arnd marina sq, and i bought qt a lot of unnecessary stuff, again. but who cares. i felt rich today. ONLY TODAY. ((: went to meet my cousin aft that. ate lj. i tell ya, de ppl cheat my money k! i paid 2 bucks for like what, a few pieces of fries only? cheaterbug can. so angry.

~~im feeling demoralised once again. no, this can't happen. i shall be strong. where's my HAPPINESS NOW book??~~

btw, im advertising for aj. COME AJ!! aj's a fun place to be at, don't worry abt muggers, cos you'll be like one too. in no time! isn't that good? isn't that fun! you'll get good grades! and you'll understand de true meaning of studying and you'll love de art of it. so why hesitate? COME AJ!

2006-02-08T23:04:00.000+08:00

my brother's being a pain in de ass again. arghh. i just can't stand him.

eh, today's wed, and i haven't updated for 3 days. ahaha. seriously i can't rmbr what really happened in de last 3 days. i have a bad memory rmbr. a really bad one. anyways, i had pe yesterday. we had to take our height and weight. guess what. i grew 1 cm taller!! yeah man. i was so darn happy, until ms tay said,"don't worry, you'll shrink. what's more, you're in hockey." so disappointing man. but staff said it's rubbish lah. i certainly hope so. yah, py, fiona and i went to visit staff at ttsh yesterday. she seems okay. she said she is. haha.

i hate gp. it's so dammit boring. and i don't really like my grp, im so sorry to say that. that's why i don't really enjoy gp. urghh. had training today. it was qt okay. my hits went from bad to worse. bleagh. and it is huifen's bdae today! training ended early today and we celebrated for her. but although it ended early, it ended with 2 400m sprint. i thought i was gonna crumble under my feet. my legs were all wobbly like anything. we saw de chingay procession as well!! it was qt fun, shouting and waving at de ppl on de floats. haha.

i just realised sth. I LOVE TO DAYDREAM A LOT. seriously. i always find myself staring into blank space, then waking up and not knowing what went on just a moment ago. die lah. how am i gonna concentrate on lessons? how am i gonna concentrate on that hockey ball when it's coming towards me?? i hate to daydream. i need to change this badbadbad habit of mine.

i wana pon sch tmr!! i haven't finish my hw. i think. haha, yah. anyways, im ponning a few lessons cos of my dental appt, so why not pon de whole day right. hai. but i got bio lab! ms mani will nagnagnag and kill me if i don't go. she's my nightmare. if i dream of her tmr night, it's an omen that i didn't do well for o levels. ahaha.

speaking of which, de results are coming out on fri! SCREAMMMMMMSS!!!! this is so exciting man.

2006-02-05T21:02:00.000+08:00

yo! today's sunday!! sunday's a happy day. but tmr's monday. there's sch. im so sian-ded.

went to nicholas' hse today to BAI NIAN. was supposed to make jelly. but i was so darn lazy. so too bad. ahaha. but anyways, there are a lot of stuff to eat at his hse. fona and i were like 2 super duper truper greedy pigs, pigging out on bbq pork, pineapple tarts and that spicy prawn rolls. and we played mahjong!! devin and fiona needed extra attention as they do not know how to play at all. yeps. watched de myth aft that. de DVD's pirated de! thus de image wasn't that fantastic. ahaha.

i was telling myself that i'll pon sch tmr if there isn't training tmr. and TATA! there's hockey tmr. bangs. conclusion: there's sch tmr. BORING.

2006-02-05T11:11:00.000+08:00

to regina: HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY! love ya lots. ((((:

had cross country on fri. it was alright, despite de fact that i haven't been running for cross country for 3 consecutive yrs. AHAHA! when i was sec 2, it was de pop parade, and i was marching in de contingent. sec 3 and sec 4, i was doing carpark duty. haha, so im darn lucky. or am i?? anyways, i was intending to walk, but xuefen was like running, and i followed her. we started in de middle, so there were a lot of ppl in front jamming up de passageway. so angry can!! it was so difficult to cut through. argh. amazingly, de whole journey seems v short somehow. i was running along de expressway, then i saw this huge signboard signalling that this particular lane leads to thomson road. and that was de way in to de finishing line!! as in, that was almost de end of de race. i was thinking, SO FAST?? i rmbr vividly that stretch of road in to de finishing line, as youyin and i walked up and down umpteen times last yr to cheer ppl on. it was damn memorable.

had pitch training yesterday at delta. had to wake up early. i don't like!! de training was alright, cos we j1s were practising our hits only. and my hits suck! ms tay had to correct me every now and then. i bet she felt frustrated teaching me. de j2s had a friendly match against northland sec. and they lost. i mean, it's not their fault they lost. it was their very 1st match. nonetheless, they played well, in my opinion that is. yeps.

i love my hockey stick. hahahahaha.

2006-02-02T19:26:00.000+08:00

today's a dammit boring day. i slept, once again, during econs. my econs tutor never ever fails to bore me to death. had bio test. it was difficult, but i thought i managed it qt okay. I HOPE SO. i don wana fail again, cos ms mani will definitely murder me.

i came home qt early! ahaha. like finally one day. i took an afternoon nap, and when i woke up, my left calf suddenly hurt like MAD. it was muscle cramp. it cramp for so long, i almost cried!! and when i thought de pain was over, de cramp came back again. DAMN. i think it's cos of yesterday's training (din cool down properly i guess) and my sleeping posture just now (i din move, and just slept in one position). i can't even walk properly. how am i supposed to run for cross country tmr! i want to run. i have an urge to run tmr. please.......i just pray that my leg will be alright tmr. sigh.

2006-02-01T22:06:00.000+08:00

to my VERY SUPER DUPER IRRITATING YET DAMN SMART BROTHER, if you're reading this (cos i told him my blog [stupid me] and he's telling everyone abt it)..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (((:

my brother's 13 this year. SO OLD :D

i got my hockey stick today! was contemplating whether shld i buy de stick now or not. cos it's not really confirm confirmed that i'll be staying in aj. so yah. speaking of which, results are gonna be out nxt week!! so exciting. how i wish de results will be out on monday. then i can slack for de whole of nxt week. muahaha. YAH RIGHT. i may be crying my heart out, or i may be celebrating and jumping for joy. i so hope that it's de latter.

i went back to cedar today w fona. de part As are like.......ERR. haha. they so don't look like ncc ppl. but do i look like one? oh NO. haha. i just hope that none will quit. de specs were...kinda disappointing. shan't elaborate. my successor!! BIG SIGH. ran 2 rounds arnd de sch. feels damn good. and i ran another 10 rounds during training. CLAP FOR ME! ahaha. but it's nth. there's more to come in de future.

there's cross country this fri! and im in PUMA hse. COOL. (((: de stupid thing is that de cross country is in de afternoon. maybe im so used to cc being in de morning, that's why i find it weird and dumb to have it in de afternoon. but doesn't it make more sense to have it in de morning? de morning sun's good! haha, lame. and also, we have lessons on fri till 12.45. DIAO. aj's sooooo kiasu.

2006-01-30T23:14:00.000+08:00

im beginning to get addicted to mahjong. it's so fun! but im just a beginner, so im losing money like anything!! my relatives are earning my money. sobs sobs!! but it's okay. im a nice person. (((:

how i wish that everyday is new yr. everyone in de family will gather tgthr, update each other abt each other's life, play mahjong till de wee hrs of de day, and not bothering abt homework. speaking of homework, im not really finishing them. groans- and i have a sickening bio test on thurs. essay qn somemore. wth.

i still love chi new yr. smiles.

2006-01-30T10:07:00.000+08:00

hockey's demoralising. to me, that is. but there's just this thing keeping me going on. like, a force. i know that i kinda sucked at hockey and prob won't get into sch team, but i would v much wana join hockey still. it's not passion for hockey, definitely. not yet. it's de same thing for ncc. i hated ncc so much. but i still went for de parades and stuff!! and i endured thru and look at me now, a CLT! so unbelievable. i just hope that hockey's turning out well for me. crosses fingers!!

it's kinda amazing how much you'll forget de details of your dreams de night before. like nxt morning, i can only rmbr flashes of it. some ppl can rmbr de WHOLE dream. that's cool. yet, i have dreams like every night, which is baddd. argh! im crapping.

time for me to meet up with bio! ooooh, i love bio to bits.

2006-01-28T11:46:00.000+08:00

fona and i went back to cedar early in de morning yesterday (and yet we missed de morning assembly), watched de concert then left. yah. actually de concert was qt boring, but some performances were good. yeps. and not a lot of ex-cedarians went back actually. so yah.

for some reason, my right arm hurts when i lift it up. pain!! i guess hurt myself during hockey training on wed. and during shoppg w fona yest, when i reached up high for stuff, my arm hurts like shit. fuck.

yest had shoppg spree w fona!! it was fab. shopped for de entire afternoon. and fona bought a lot of stuff! act i din buy as much as fona. ahaha. we found damn cheapcheap bargains. we're so lucky i tell ya. harley davidson shirt for 12 bucks. MAN!

this is de result of me walking for de entire afternoon arnd town with fiona:
harley davidson shirt: 12 bucks
denim skirt: 39 bucks
bra: 19 bucks
another bra: 13 bucks
hairband: 5 bucks
total: 88 bucks

look, im like damn cheapo lah. all de stuff are so cheapcheap. but HECK. it's just that these stuff are on sale. haha. fona spent like arnd 2 times more than me?? cool. haha. cos she did all her cny shopping in a day. and i did half of mine like from tues to fri? so yah. and im happy. cos it's CHINESE NEW YEAR! red packets=money. (yes, im money-minded, but who isn't?) im so looking forward to it. ((((:

2006-01-25T21:51:00.000+08:00

im so fucked up.

im so frustrated. very. today's training was damn failure. for me. i mean, i cant hit de balls well. i cant block de balls well. i cant do anything well!! and im so dammit demoralised. wth. im beginning to lose confidence in myself.
~~i so feel like crying.~~

why cant fiona and i go for ophir tgthr during march? hello, WE SIGNED UP FIRST, damn you. i see biaseness alrdy.

fucking obvious.

2006-01-24T22:20:00.000+08:00

according to de newspapers, yesterday 23 jan is supposedly de gloomiest day of 2006. and i think it's so true! i was so darn lethargic yesterday. and sth bad really happened. yah. and there's this formula to show this evidence.

W + (D-d) x TQM x NA

W: weather
D: debt
d: monthly salary
T: time since christmas
Q: time since failure to quit a bad habit
M: low motivation levels
NA: the need to take action

all these unhappy elements converge to make a very unhappy day on jan 23. ah hah. very interesting isn't it. and de best part of it all is that according to de formula, june 23 is supposedly de happiest day of 2006. im so looking forward to that day. ((((:

shld i join hockey? shld i join hockey? shld i join hockey? im so confused. de training's gonna be tough as we're training for this season alrdy. DAMN fast. but it's gonna be hard on us j1s. like we just learnt de basics. so yeah. bless my soul. and there's training like on fri at nyp. grrr.

i went out with my sis today in search for my cny clothes. but i couldn't find anything! and i ended up spending money on unnecessary things. idiot. somehow i keep bumping into ppl i know. i saw yanti and friend, de part Bs, and LT ye. like whoa.

~~how i wish i can go shopping on fri.~~

2006-01-21T23:20:00.000+08:00

apparently, aj has de toughest pe programme in spore. according to my pe teacher. haha, is it? but it's really tough. have to run 2 rounds for warm-up, plus another 6 rounds for pe. i think it's absolutely crazy. for each pe lesson we have to do all that. and i have pe twice a week. BEST. de very first pe lesson is so much like ncc parade. jogging, dips, sit ups, jumping jacks. so ncc-ish!!

went for pitch training today. and there's only 6 jc1s plus toy! i mean, i feel happy, as in it shows that im not that all bad in hockey eh? so yah. and i think i look spastic wearing shin guards plus damn high socks. de external instructor's name is charles and he's damn small-size. but he's also v agile. i mean duh right. he's an instructor. he taught us how to hit de ball. and de 6 of us spent like almost de whole morning practising our hits. i paired up w kf and de 2 of us ended up running here and there blocking balls. it shows how lousy we are. haha. and im not mastering de skill! im always hitting de turf. and water droplets will fly. sickening can. then towards de end of de training, yacoob (we call him yakult, de relative of vitagen. haha.) showed us some really fantastic moves. and it's really darn cool.

aft training de 6 of us went to j8 for lunch. then walk walk, talk talk. and we are really excited abt hockey! we even planned to buy nike sportsbra, slippers, shoebags, shin guards blah blah tgthr. qt crazy lor. but i like it. (((: and de exciting thing is that there are 3 cedarians among de 6 of us - rachel chin, joycelyn sin and me!! cool.

my thighs are aching. my shoulders are aching. my BUTT is aching. im a lousy asshole.

2006-01-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

THIS IS FUNNY.

Q: How many RJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: 4 whole faculties. One fac to design the new bulb, one fac to test it out, one fac to market it and one guy to write a stupid Email about lightbulbs.

Q: How many HCJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: The whole school.....to compete with RJC.........

Q: How many VJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: The whole school.......one to screw it in and the rest to cheer and wave flags and banners to give him/her support.

Q: How many NJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: NO LIGHT STILL CAN STUDY!!!!!

Q: How many AJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: They're too busy trying to be one of the top 5 JCs...

Q: How many ACJC students does it take to change lightbulb??
A: None......they use all their money to employ YJC to do it for them.

Q: How many YJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: None.....only one teacher to tell them what a lightbulb is in the first place and to demonstrate (how do you think they're able to change it for AC?)

Q: How many CJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: They'd prefer it darker..........(hmmm...*raise eyebrow*)......

Q: How many JJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: None......Their physics is so bad that they make the male teacher cry.....

Q: How many TPJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: Would they bother??

Q: How many MJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: None.They're too busy studying. trying not to get expelled..

Q: How many SAJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: None.....they believe in praying for it.

Q: How many NYJC students does it take tochange a lightbulb??
A: None.....they are still using oil lamps.

Q: How many SRJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: Huh, wat litebarb ...

Q: Dun you guys wonder who wrote this?
A: TJC!

Q: How many TJC students does it take to change the lightbulb?
A: None. They think they are very bright already.

2006-01-20T22:25:00.000+08:00

TGIF!! im so so happy. a week has passed since.......last week? heh.

mon and tues:
camp feast! it was interesting. it was my first camp as a CLT. same goes for most of de 50th i guess. 1st day did nth much. just see see, walk walk. qt boring actually. im was sticking to aprie most of de time! haha. yah, like what aprie and fona said in their blogs, there were 2 utterly disgusting creatures WHICH do not even belong to earth. they shld be sent to disgusting-cum-whatanass-cum-superthickskin planet. urgh.
for de 2 nights, me aprie and fona slept like v v late. and we ate macs in de wee hours of de morning. it was FUN. heh.

when i came back to sch on wed, there were so much to do. lucky there's xuefen to help me. otherwise i'll just die. ms mani was being a bitch lor. she scolded de class just cos i din attend her first tutorial on monday when i was away with a valid reason. urghhHH! so sickening. lucky she din really teach that much for bio. and de bio test yesterday was horrendous. de max i can get out of 10 is 2. dammit, im so gonna die for bio. wth.

i like my maths and chem teacher. my chem teacher is making me fall in love with chem once again. :))))

had hockey tryouts today. act it's not tryouts. just play arnd lor. had a feel of what hockey is abt. de seniors taught us de basics and stuff. dribbling, passing. yah. and we played a teeny weeny match. joycelyn was in de same team as me and we won! woohoo!! and hockey's really v v tiring. you have to bend your knees like everytime and my thighs are hurting now. and there's pitch training tmr! hope it's gonna be fun.

~~im going shopping tmr. yays!~~

2006-01-15T11:52:00.000+08:00

today's sunday and tmr's mon! camp feast is tmr. exciting! but im scared that im not able perform up to standard. i mean, i seriously feel that my leadership skills are useless now. as in, i don have de ability anymore. sighs.

i din watch memoirs of a geisha w lovie yesterday! im so darn sad. cos she has to go to work early today and she's scared that she won be able to wake up today if she went to watch. so we din go and watch. what a pity. otherwise i would have had an exciting experience sneaking out of my hse. hah.

i tried doing some reading up on bio. and i tell ya, i totally don understand what de notes are talking abt. ms mani said that must read 10 pages in advance. i read like only 6 pages and i feel like DYING. and i have a test nxt week. wow, so fun.

2006-01-13T22:14:00.000+08:00

did i say that my maths teacher suck? well, she does. she's poonster no2.
1) she looks like poonster. i seriously think that they are sisters.
2) she talks like poonster.
3) both suck like anything.
seriously, she doesn't really know how to teach. she goes like damn fast, and i cant catch up. urgh. she thinks de whole class is as smart as her. and for goodness sake, she's still using de OHP. she's an ancient creature. and she talks like that, "this one must like that HUH", "pay attention HUH" and "do de examples HUH". shall i give her an oxygen mask or sth.

and bio is CHIM. i dono what ms mani is talking half of de lesson. im so gonna die for bio. and im missing 2 whole freaking periods nxt week. GREAT. just what i needed.

aft sch went to buy cake for fabian. then went tryouts with kaifong. din try squash. it looks damn difficult. then we thought there were hockey tryouts or sth like that. don have lor. chey. we waited for de bball tryouts, but there weren't any bball girls! kf and i stood at de pe dept like 2 lost kiddos. we waited till 6 plus, yet no girls came and practise bball when they were supposed to have training at 6.15pm. and we decided die die we won join odac. haha.

went to look for my pd tutor abt camo feast, but she's not in. then went to general office, filled in a form, and de lady asked me to ask de vp. i asked mrs woo whether is it possible to miss 2 days of sch. and there she went, crapping abt what she talked to us before. yada yada. saying that she mentioned to us that we ajc-ians are students of ajc, and are supposed to place first priority for aj's activities and want us to all go through de whole programme. bullshit. nxt, she said, "i don't know, you can go ask de principal and see whether she allows or not. but my policy is that you can't go just cos of external cca." she is so obviously hinting that ms leong will be biased towards me just cos im from cedar and allow me to skip school. whatever.

lucky ms leong's so understanding! she started by saying that these organisations (meaning ncc) always think that de schs will definitely allow students to skip sch for some activities. yah. she also said that i'll be missing lessons and such, but i promised her i'll do pro-active learning and read in advance. i kept reassuring her that i will keep up with de rest, and definitely try my best to place aj's activities above ncc in de future. hah. she said this which amuses me, "......i don't want others to think that im favouring you just because you were from my previous sch." haha, she's cute. ms leong is not that kind of person, im very sure of. like duh. im so glad that she din find me annoying cos i went to talk to her twice abt ncc stuff le. lucky.

i hate my vp.

2006-01-11T21:53:00.000+08:00

im having a flu! and cough! shucks. i hope i get well really soon, otherwise i'll be so damn sick during camp feast. urgh.

had cca carnival today! qt exciting. at first went to de hall with kaishi, xuefen, zeling and ruixi to watch performances and such. de performances were qt boring actually. then kaifong pulled me to go for MANY MANY cca tryouts. act, they're not exactly tryouts. just sign up. and kaifong, being so damn enthu, signed up for a lot of ccas. and i had to sign up with her as well. ahaha. so i signed up for air rifle, odac, tennis (kena pulled by kaifong for de 2nd tryouts), hockey, bball (HAHA) and wushu. de wushu ppl bribed us with a lollipop. LOL.

hockey's not bad a choice actually. de ppl there are so damn enthu. v v united as well. and there are 2 ex-cedarians in de team! woots. that'll be fun. and kaifong's eyecandy is in hockey as well. she and her friend is so over him. gosh. but seriously, he's qt cute. ahaha.

it's raining now. my nose is acting up again. DAMMIT.

2006-01-10T14:35:00.000+08:00

i shall go and read my andrew matthew's book. happiness now.

2006-01-10T13:05:00.000+08:00

why must i be a slave to pleasure? why must i please everyone in my life? is my SOLE purpose in life to please others? isn't that a tad unfair to me? when i was de csm it was de case. i had to please my specs. i had to please my cadets. i had to please mike chia. when sth cocked, blaming me was de only thought on their mind. and when it comes to my family, it's like that as well. COS I AM DE BIG SISTER. know what, i dont really care. does that mean i have to please my sister and brother even though they're at fault? does that mean that i have to swallow my pride and say sorry to them? im so sorry i cant do it. you cant expect too much from me. if you do, then im sorry to say that you will be disappointed. im not THAT wonderful person you all thought i was. im just a human. you know, HUMAN.

2006-01-09T22:10:00.000+08:00

im so tired!! just came home and bathed. so refreshing. ahhhhHH.

officially had sch today. de sch told all of us that de timetable will be up on de website over de weekend, BUT there wasn't any! CHEATERS. then this morning, everyone was like rushing to de board to copy down de timetable. stupid lor. grrrr.

i got de same combi as shalini and jieying! happy :D H2 maths, H2 bio, H2 chem and H1 econs. yeps. hope i'll love bio like i did last yr. de bio teacher was kinda cute. i mean, not her size, but her voice. it's so squeaky. it just doesn't suit a grown-up. she gave a lot of tips for studying and such, which i find them very useful. very very very useful. i shall employ these methods to study during my jc yrs! but de thing is that i kinda forgot these methods. ahahahahaha.

today i finally got a taste of what aj's food is like. i tell ya, de fish and chips sucks! de chips are like stones, and de fish is like so disgusting. oh gosh. how am i gonna survive without decent food??

went back to cedar today!! jieying and i were like SO DAMN EXCITED. who wouldn't eh?? saw qt a few teachers. had a lot of fun talking with ms tan! she's still as cute as before. she showed us de other side of her, de mean side! de gossipy side! haha, but she's still nice. and i still love her!!!

and i miss cedar DEARLY. i even hugged de pillar along de spiral staircase. de sch seems strangely familiar. it's like, de sch is familiar yet so weird. ahh! aj's compound is like so damn old. it is. de hall looks as if it's gonna collapse any moment. ah. am i gonna stay in aj for 2 yrs?

ncc's so damn cocked. at first i received news that aprie may be de understudy for oc. then just now, aprie told me that it's back to me and im under ma'am sharifah. like huh? de positions are ever-changing. why cant they just confirm their choices like asap? but ncc won't be ncc if there aren't cock-ups. smirks.

2006-01-08T10:00:00.000+08:00

rain! it's been raining for de whole morning. de atmosphere is so gloomy. man, so grey. BUT I LIKE IT.

i just came back from my grandma's hse, and i had a traumatic experience!! when i took de bus to toa payoh interchange, i sat at de back. then i smell a stench. so stink can. then i turned and looked where is de source. and tata! i saw this guy dressed in rags. talking to himself. gosh gosh. i hate this kind of ppl. i sound mean, but it's true. then he was coughing like hell, and i tried not to breathe, in case he has some deadly disease which is infectious. but i failed! hah. couldn't hold my breath longggg enough.

toa payoh was one of de mrt stations which is closed for de emergency exercise, so there were lots of policemen and volunteers helping to........er, helping to guide de bus passengers? sth like that. so cool! de whole situation was so...whoa.

went tp macs. then when i was ordering my food, THAT SAME STINKY GUY went to de counter and demanded for a cup of water. one cup is not enough! he demanded for another one. oh my, so thick-skinned! and there goes de stench again.

i went to my seat, then de guy came and was like stretching his hand to take my food. LUCKY i was fast enough to grab de tray away. ahhhH! if he dares place that filthy hand of his on my food, im so gonna scream. and his fingernails are soooooo black. ewwww. then he went around wanting to grab food. gosh. this old man was kind enough to spare him 5 bucks. after which, de same old man gave de dirty guy one of his hotcakes plus butter. so nice! but that dirty guy didn't eat it k!! oh gosh. i so feel like murdering him.

you know like all around spore, there are LOTS of this type of ppl: stinky, filthy, wanting to have free bus rides, have free food. freeloaders. why cant they like go find a job and earn money on their own? BUT FIRST, go bathe. it's not as if they don't have their limbs. they're alrdy so much fortunate than those children in developing countries whose limbs are amputated just to become beggars on the streets. i will nvr pity these kind of ppl. so what they look pitiful? they shld be happy that they're in spore.

2006-01-07T11:30:00.000+08:00

my brother's back!! ahaha. kinda happy. got somebody to quarrel with. he was soooo damn stinky when he reached home. gosh. like a garbage dump. and his clothes were all so dirty.

de moment he finished bathing, he went to play maple story. is maple story THAT interesting? i don think so. and he's fighting over de comp with me. now.

im under azmi as understudy!! why must this happen to me. why not khalis be de one under him. this is so dammit unfair. but just as well, i get to go camp feast. i want to miss sch!! hees. my subj combi is not out yet. i want to know!! so excited. haha.

i suddenly realise i miss CLT course.

2006-01-06T15:44:00.000+08:00

im sick. and i din go to sch today.

today there's gonna be campfire. i guess they will dance de 3 dances we had learn, mambo no.5, borriquito, and it's gonna be me. and it's gonna be fun i guess. i mean, i had a fun time learning those mass dances. ESP it's gonna be me. it's so damn nice! and cool. woots.

brother has been gone for 2 days. i kinda miss him. wonder how he's doing at his orientation camp. hope he's doing alright. having fun too. wana bring him to eat carl's junior tmr eh. im SO NICE. he better be not lazy, that little fat piglet.

2006-01-04T20:37:00.001+08:00

this sucks. i saw this jc 1 student in julia's grp who has de same shoes as me. and i saw this jc 2 who got de same bag as me.

DAMN.DAMN.DAMN.

2006-01-04T20:26:00.000+08:00

today's orientation was fun! had a great time shouting and cheering. actually ajc-ians are not bad. as in their games are qt fun. their activities are fun. haha, im like promoting ajc.

de morning assembly was kinda crap, in my opinion. de commander sedia de whole sch, then diam us. like HUH? diam can still sing de national anthemn? funny eh. then he himself can walk over to de mike and recite de pledge. and another thing. we sang de sch song aft de announcements. k, maybe this is de way in aj, but im so not used to it! urgh. this is so frustrating. im still so cedar-orientated.

i love cedar still. i always will.

2006-01-03T19:35:00.000+08:00

today's orientation. and my orientation grp is trabajoso. elementii grp is acero. de names are WEIRD.

i feel funny today. like im not going to cedar today. im like walking to de central bus stop to meet jia hui. SO WEIRD. met up with jiahui and shalini. and it's again damn weird to walk into ajc. ahhHHHH! i feel sad as well.

lucky there's another cedarian in my og. otherwise i'll just die there. she's ze ling. eh, kinda okay lah. had ice-breakers. that one was a failure. bleagh. then had lunch. it sucks. i hate spagetti so much. and im eating fats literally when i eat de fried chicken. yucksssss.

aft that had mass dance. qt fun. just that im so not used to dancing with a guy. and that guy is kinda a toot. pathetic. and his hands were SHAKING. my goodness. aft that we had games. kinda fun. not too bad. i had a fun time spotting ex-cedarians.

and i saw ms leong! haha, de sight of her delights me soooo much. and pls, im not a les. when she made her speech, she's like WHOA. so full of confidence. i like her. :))))))))))) i bet she misses driving to cedar and making morning speeches to cedarians. i mean, today she was like,"good morning young ladies and gentlemen, and teachers." i was waiting for "good morning cedarians and teachers." i can just picture it in my mind. too bad, it's not gonna happen.

i think im going TF tmr. hehe. anyways, hq is short of ppl. hahahhahaaha. just go and HELP OUT. tmr's activities are not THAT impt actually.

im feeling tired. i mean, de orientation's until 6 plus. wed and thurs are gonna be like that as well. and we're dismissed at 9 plus on fri cos we're having some stupid campfire? sheesh. we have free time from like 12 plus to 1745. and there are movies being screened. but i mean, why cant they just do without de campfire??

2006-01-02T13:13:00.000+08:00

so you're intersted in PUMA? nice move. you're obviously smart, confident and know what you want in life.

sure, you work hard, but you're no slave to de rat race. you know de score. you call de shots. you make de most of your chances.

so buy this it suits you.

this above is puma's COPORATE MESSAGE. it amuses me so much, i want to write it down somewhere. and this is my puma bag.

im patriotic.

2006-01-02T12:19:00.000+08:00

tmr's sch!

-screammmmmmmmmmmmms!

fiona just msged me. she saw this damn sexy nike shoes. and it's cheaper and nicer than de one i bought. screams again! nvm, i shan't regret.

de hols passed damn fast. i guess it was because of de clt course. i mean, it took up 2 weeks plus of de hols. aft that, i went out like practically everyday. so sick of it. so tata! im here at home slacking. who says staying at home is boring? i don think so. there's so much to do. SLEEP esp. hahahhahaha.

im scared of jc life. it's beginning to start. real soon. like tmr. i don wana go jc. i just wana go to cedar every single day. see de familiar teachers (even if they are irritatingly horrendous), see my darling friends, see my juniors (nvm if they're little brats). i want to do flag-raising with my flag-raising buddies again! aprie and maz. man, they're my best flag-raising buddies ever! haha, they're like my ONLY flag-raising buddies. i want to walk along de corridors of de classrooms and scream like nobody's business. i'll definitely miss de after-school-madness. ie when ppl rush here and there along de corridors. esp when i rush to maz's class like almost everyday to settle some ncc crap stuff. it seems weird cos im always de one rushing here and there to chase aft ppl for ncc stuff. not de other way round. HECK. i like rushing. :))))))

i miss being de contingent commander. and i was this close to becoming de parade commander. but nvm. jieying was a GOOD one. thumbs up. i'll miss de morning announcements. i'll miss wednesday's reflections. although i don really pay attention to de reflections. i mean, who in de right mind will listen??

i'll miss my sec 4 teachers.

mrs lim! de wonderwoman who taught me ss/geog and my grade jumped from B4 to A1. yippee! i'll miss her crappiness and mood swings. her laughter too!

mrs yeo..........err......i'll miss her inability to teach us? ahaha. she cant teach, seriously. but she's a nice teacher. damn concerned abt us. im still sore abt de fact that she wrote in my testimonial that im from National POLICE Cadet Corp.

ms tan!!!! oh gosh, another superduper woman. she made biology seems so darn interesting. my bio improved! not v much, but im so damn interested in biology le. hehehehe. i'll miss her smallness and cuteness. whenever we ask her one qn, she'll really go in-depth and tell us all de relevant info. de bio tb is in her brain. damn pro!

mr chia..............er................kinda irritating. ahaha! this is due to de fact that he is my ncc teacher in-charge and as well as my chem teacher. for 2 yrs. freak. he cant really teach as well, but he's better than mrs yeo by just this teeny weeny bit.

mdm koh. haha, another ncc teacher in-charge. she's good. my chinese improved (I THINK). i mean, my chinese is LIKE THAT. there's no way you can change my chinese standard.

mrs lum. joker! she's damn cute as well. she and her husband. hahahaha. pam and i always make fun of her. we are so mean. but she doesn't mind! and that is what's impt!

mr tay. short BUT powerful. i mean, he's whoa. every cedarian is so terrified of him. see him in de distance, tuck in shirt, button up 1st button, pull up socks. that is de immediate action of every cedarian. but he's darn lame! i really enjoy his lessons.

ms leong. can doze off to dreamland. and i always do. which is crazy, considering de fact that im sitting right in front.

OKAY. im talking so much abt cedar. i mean, all these memories will slowly fade away. even now, i cant really picture all those scenes. i mean, it's so vague. im moving on to de nxt phase of my life. i should just look ahead and not think abt de past. LET GO.

2006-01-02T11:20:00.000+08:00

THIS IS NICE. http://www.lcbtv.com/flash/movie/tonghua.swf

2006-01-02T10:34:00.000+08:00

what a wonderful morning it has been. i've been having de runs non-stop since 6.30am today. i just felt my stomach churning and de shit had to come out. and it's not shit. it's shit plus alot alot of water.
once at 6.30am.
once at 8 plus am.
once at 9.45am.
once at 10.30am.
there's sth really wrong with my stomach. i must have ate laxatives. haha. i still rmbr de time in clt course when de doctor gave me this medicine to make my stools harder. how i wish there's a medicine which can make my stools HARDER.

2006-01-01T21:45:00.000+08:00

random thought: does shit have oil?

2006-01-01T20:30:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2006!

today's de start of a new year. don you notice that even de air today seems fresher? ahaha. it may just be my imagination. but still.

went out w yy today. like AGAIN. haha. was psychoing her to join 51st. hees. hope she does. then i can really gossip with her! she bought her gola bag, then i bought my puma bag. but im sad! de puma bag is like de display piece. and it's A BIT dirty. and de bag is biege. gosh. im sad.

was talking to my cousin abt de subject combis. i feel like taking trip sci. like AGAIN. dono why. funny. but it's gonna be damn heavy. seriously. but i dono which sci to give up! BIO? PHYSICS? i like bio! and ms tan was such a wonderful teacher. mrs yeo was like.....dots. but im scared that if i take bio, de bio teacher in aj sucks. shit. im so darn confused.
someone pls give me some sound advice!

2005-12-31T20:36:00.000+08:00

i shall make my blog alive and kicking again! :)))))))

haha, that's what i always say. BUT i shall keep my word.

i was reading my past entries. i was saying that 'i've set my mind to become a clt. nth's gonna change my mind. hmmm, ya NOTHING.' HAHAHA. funny eh? i backed out. I DID. but last minute i didn't. i cant believe im always lying to myself.

prelims. din make it to vj. nvm. i wouldn't want to take de bus for 1+ hr and get my butt numb. it's really numb can. i tried. haha. anyways, aj's not too bad either. and kaifong is in de same grp as me! damn coincidental. happy!!

o's. LIKE THAT.

prom. ALSO LIKE THAT.

clt course. nth much to say. just that some ppl have really damn childish thinking. for some reason.

2005-08-02T23:51:00.000+08:00

im so bored. it's gonna be twelve soon.

"dong! dong! dong! dong! dong! dong! dong! dong! dong! dong! dong! dong!"

ya, ya. im being lame.

i don understand why ppl say this, "It's okay if he/she doesn't like me. As long as he/she is happy, then i'll be happy." i know it's true, but how dumb can you get! if he/she is happy, you'll be happy too cos you care for him/her. BUT it'll be better if you are tgthr with him/her! right? i know i don really understand all this, but im jus stating my opinions in a very objective view.

(jus take it that i gone bonkers for A DAY)

im getting out of cedar soon. happy or sad? we'll see.

2005-08-01T13:04:00.000+08:00

a week passed by. whoa. so fast. only 30 plus more days to prelims. reality sinking in FAST.

had ndp rehearsal on wed. hah. it was a disaster. kinda. ncc was ooookay. not too bad. as the commander, i was not too bad for a first-timer. at least i was better than the rcy and guides commander. DUH! i have to be!

thk, as usual, was being the same freaking asshole again. i really pity jy.

mc too. he's getting on my nerves. again. py's damn irritated with him oso. i guess we'll jus have to bear for A FEW MORE WEEKS. and tata! bye!

i've set my mind to become a clt. nth's gonna change my mind. hmmm, ya NOTHING.

rhd celebrations on fri. hmmm, qt fun. always taking pics here and there. and.....the bravest thing i've ever done in my life: i walked pp way, to the nel station, took a train to outram, went to ndc.........all in my saree! woohs! i had no choice. ya. so i jus had to bear all the strange stares from the ppl. i cant believe i did it! :)))))

i'm listening to Reach Out For The Skies. im so darn patriotic! :D

2005-07-22T15:38:00.000+08:00

im so damn fed up. firstly i cant send the ncc day photos to de specs. why? cos the size is too big. and i don have a single idea wat to do. guess have to ask maz to teach me. secondly. my mp3 is not working. asshole. stupid little thing got me so irritated.

2005-07-21T22:29:00.000+08:00

haha..this is only my 4th entry. kinda pathetic. i know i shouldn't have a blog in the first place. cos i should be studying NOW. but im not.

somehow, jus somehow, i am always sleeping during mrs lum's lessons. i turn and face the window and lay my head on my hands. and i sleep. haha. tink she noticed. her lessons are interesting. not like some other teachers. but just that i sleep during her lessons and not the other teachers' lessons.

tmr's fri. TGIF. really. i need a break.

2005-07-21T14:37:00.000+08:00

LAST POST: 20 JUN 2005

sucks. everything jus whooshed past. unit camp, ncc day, chinese O levels oral + listening compre. damn.ed. and before i know it, english O levels oral will be over. im jus not keeping up with the times.

part Cs took over for pt today. at this very moment, i was picturing the part Cs REALLY taking over as specialists. i feel a sense of unwillingness. really. don wana give up my post THAT EASILY. and cedar ncc. part Cs better not let cedar ncc go down the drain. or i'll jump out of my grave and kill them. i swear.

lost my nametag. the one with the 'Company Sergeant Major (NCC)' on it. haha. i wasn't THAT upset when yy and yvonne told me about it. wonder why. but after much thought, i sorted out my thoughts. the badge is just a badge. what does it represent? a position only. just bullcrap. i might as well don wear that badge and be the person that i really want to. and now it's lost. and i'm wearing fiona's badge. heh. wat am i supposed to do during O levels? pose as fiona?

finished reading harry potter. damn sad. haish. good things must all come at an end i guess. that's how life supposed to be. tony parsons' family way is damn nice too. a lot of principles to be learnt in life. i would really want to have a mindset like tony parsons.

2005-06-20T15:01:00.000+08:00

i skipped physics remedial. i skipped physics remedial. i skipped physics remedial! heheh.

reason
1) i needa come my grandma's hse to do unit camp proposal.
2) i don wana listen to mrs yeo's crap for 3 whole hrs.
3) im darn tired.

haha. cant believe i did that. but it's ok. jus copy de notes frm weili can le.

he said he's gonna move all de stuff we're borrowing from de pe store himself. whoa. he thinks he's superman. 87 sleeping bags. and lots of other stuff. who cares. hope he'll jus fall down de stairs and roll down.

tmr ty's birthday. and i haven even buy anything for her yet. oops. but we're going out to celebrate tmr. don tink im watching movies with them. no money. and i also want to pack my stuff for unit camp.

speaking of unit camp. everything is like so disorganised. scratches head damn hard. die. i have this feeling that de camp will be disastrous. haha. hope my sixth sense fails me.

too lethargic

2005-06-15T04:20:00.000+08:00

im so sick of everything nowadays. camp. hol homework. revision. sucks like hell. if it was a yr ago, i would be enjoying myself alrdy. hai. reality is so cruel.

oh. i went to my old url. which was taken up by this asshole. this band guy. urrgh. guys don suit that url. i like that url. really.

week 3 day 3. few more days to hell. yes, hell.