haha, this is so damn random. i was at yy's hse, trying on her SIA uniform. i dono how de pic was taken, seriously. so pro right. both of my hands are shown. so how was this pic taken??

this is my brother with his fractured arm. so poor thing right!

he's too shy. ahaha.

lester chee HUI MIN, acting cute.

me!! see that girl with braces? YEAH.

taken by fiona, on de day we went back to cedar for CNY's celebrations. so fake right? yeah, it's act one. hahahahahahaha.

i just wana take a deep breath
10:14 PM

im swearing too much, i swear. guess who're de ones influencing me. NCC GUYS.

im so dammit tired. and there's training tmr. oh god.

i just wana take a deep breath
8:55 PM

i think im so gonna be in trouble. i skipped sch on monday and tuesday just for camp feast. how on earth did i end up there man. and i dragged fiona with me there. kiah kiah.

booked in on sunday night. fiona and i met up with nicholas, fahmi and zul first, and aft that we went to play pool. im damn damn lousy lah. de rest are SUPER pros. lester came aft that, then de REAL pro came. i was de lousiest there man. then book into hq at 9 plus. wah lau, there were so little ppl there. and s1 was supposedly to be there by 9. but i don't see de s1 ppl! so irritating.

anyways, i was de alpha coy oc upperstudy. fiona was my understudy. then de 3 alpha pcs were fahmi, lester and nicholas. damn power lah! like throughout de 2 days, we really had fun and a lot of laughter. too bad zul is in bravo. under WWE again. haha. so sad for him man. de guys were being themselves, cos they were damn dirty-minded as usual. like what's new. had macs for supper for 2 consecutive nights. damn fattening lah! but in a way, i like having supper during camps.

i tell ya, ALPHA COY ROCKS MAN. we were always faster than bravo coy like almost every time. like moving from place to place. and for eg, we were supposed to collect de journals from de cadets. alpha coy had alrdy collected finish when thinesh asked for them. bravo coy's journals are like not even collected at all. HAHAHA. laughs evily.

on de 1st night, everyone's mood was damn bad. de atmosphere was so tensed up. so scary.

lester is fiona and my HAO JIE MEI. yeah man.

WWE attended de spore idols' audition and got in to de 2nd round. my god. she better not throw cedar's face.

rachel told me that training on monday was hell. looks that de hockey girls trained really hard. i feel damn guilty. westwood lost de match, that's why charles was crazy. that was rae's deductions, which i think it's so true.

i went to take mc just now aft we booked out. went to de polyclinic, but i had to wait fro 1hr and 23 min. siao ah. damn long lah. then went to raffles medical grp to get mc. told de doctor i had gastric flu, felt nauseous and bloated in de morning, which i really did. he prescribed me some medicine and de total bill was $29.60!! so freaking ex lah! 30 bucks know. i could have fully utilised that sum of money man.

i don't feel like gg to sch tmr. super sian-ded. im still in de camp mode.

i just wana take a deep breath
8:03 PM

Friday, February 17, 2006

im so upset. my brother's injured. he fractured his arm. like OUCH. he was so weak, cos of de anaesthetic. he's so clumsy lah. my mum said he ran and tripped or sth like that. he's always injuring himself. and now he has a reason not to join rugby. hahaha. when i knew that he got injured, i was so depressed. i dono why. i mean, i don't really LOVE him know. but i guess it's in me that i really treasure him a lot. hey, he's my brother aft all. and im not that cold-blooded.

this incident reminded me of de time when me myself fractured my arm as well. way back when i was k1. haha, that incident was damn hilarious lah. i was riding on this HUGE bike in my auntie's hse. i was riding arnd de hse, and when i wanted to leave de balcony, de stupid bike's wheels couldn't go over that ledge. i lost my balance and FELL. damn stupid lah. guess my sis de only one left in de family who hasn't fractured her arm before. TOUCHWOOD!

i brought cadbury's boost to sch today. and i din eat. it melted! im so darn sad. this is on de wrapper. damn amusing. it's not de words. it's de length and elaboration on such a simple piece of chocolate.
smooth textured chocolate flavoured centre with crunchy biscuit pieces surrounded in caramel, all covered in cadbury dairy milk milk chocolate.

im down for camp feast. AGAIN! i told nicholas that i wana put my name down for pending. and he told me that thinesh squeezed me inside. WAH! i so wana strangle nicholas. cos fiona can't go in de end. WWE and sha going. think they're de only female clts going. how on earth am i gonna survive with them alone? i'll be squashed by wwe! and i can't really miss sch again cos of ncc. i mean, the last time i did, i was scrutinised k. like so WTH.

tmr's supernumerary selection. hockey pitch training too! but i guess im going for hockey. i mean, i really need to polish up my hits. guess i'll have no chance to hold a sword and become a contingent commander. man, im sad.

stayed back today to help revamp de hockey noticeboard. and it was kinda a success! rae and jess drew all de ppl in de team! except some guys. de guys are overpopulated, quoted by jess. haha. de cartoon ppl are all so cute know! then i have my mouth wide open showing my braces. beams! my picture's cute. i know ppl like lester will wana puke. hahaha. mel and i were in-charge of outlining and cutting out those ppl. we put in a lot of effort k! ((((:

btw i think rae and i can go for de sports trip to desaru! im so happy, yet scared as well. im scared of de training. man, it's gonna be tough. like duh right. we're like competing against de sports sch there. if let's say im confirmed going for this trip, and going ophir as well, im in msia from mon to sun during de march hols! power sia. but i think it's kinda cool. heehee.

i just wana take a deep breath
10:19 PM

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

im feeling so darn bored now. it's a gloomy wednesday afternoon. and sch's starting tmr. im sadddd.

went out with fiona, weili and yy yesterday. eat, pool, shop, walk and home. that's it. hahahahaha.

i dislike de feeling of being betrayed. although it's not EXACTLY betraying me directly, BUT STILL. i feel sad. i shan't dwell upon that matter. it's life. and that's fate.

i have training later. i just hope it'll end early and it's a light one. i don't want another training similar to monday's, i'll die.

i just wana take a deep breath
2:50 PM

Monday, February 13, 2006

im so darn tired!! training today was TOUGH. let me repeat, TOUGH. i felt like dying right there on de spot. it was de toughest training so far. but there's more to come. wow, so exciting ain't it! actually, im posing all these trainings as challenges. i mean, what's more fun than overcoming all these challenges and at de end of de day, i can proudly say " I'VE DONE IT! " that'll be sooooo cool. smirks-

i can't stand it! im so fat. and im constantly gorging myself with snacks every night. this is so wrong man. i shld just throw away all those leftover goodies from cny. they're tempting me like anything.

im kinda addicted to maple story! shit..die!! i was scolding my brother for being so addicted to that game and here i am, playing de game for almost de whole morning! man. i shld just ban myself away from de comp and STUDY. yes, study.

i just wana take a deep breath
10:19 PM

Sunday, February 12, 2006

what's done is done. nothing will change de fact. i shall just face up to de truth.

im not gonna blabber abt my results, whether im happy or sad or whatsoever, because it's OVER. O-V-E-R. i shall just get over with it. ms mani said that employers will only look at your A level results, not O level. so im so gonna have no life for de nxt 2 yrs. ppl, so don't blame me if i don't go for gatherings and stuff. cos i love studying.

anyways, i spent my whole weekend literally slacking. wana stay at home de whole day to watch vcds, but unfortunately, my sister has no vcds for me to watch! DAMN. but nonetheless, i went to watch movie w my auntie and cousin. CASANOVA. it's nice, go watch it! not-so-highly recommended, but it's not bad for a couple to watch on vday. hahahaha.

today, sunday! i went out w lovie cos she promised me a treat. ahaha. we went to her workplace, de asian kitchen. de food there is not too bad! we ordered like qt a lot of stuff, but luckily she has 25% discount. ahaha. i like de xiao long bao there!! so we ate like what, 12 of them?? we were so dammit full after that. went walkwalk arnd marina sq, and i bought qt a lot of unnecessary stuff, again. but who cares. i felt rich today. ONLY TODAY. ((: went to meet my cousin aft that. ate lj. i tell ya, de ppl cheat my money k! i paid 2 bucks for like what, a few pieces of fries only? cheaterbug can. so angry.

im feeling demoralised once again. no, this can't happen. i shall be strong. where's my HAPPINESS NOW book??

btw, im advertising for aj. COME AJ!! aj's a fun place to be at, don't worry abt muggers, cos you'll be like one too. in no time! isn't that good? isn't that fun! you'll get good grades! and you'll understand de true meaning of studying and you'll love de art of it. so why hesitate? COME AJ!

i just wana take a deep breath
11:47 PM

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

my brother's being a pain in de ass again. arghh. i just can't stand him.

eh, today's wed, and i haven't updated for 3 days. ahaha. seriously i can't rmbr what really happened in de last 3 days. i have a bad memory rmbr. a really bad one. anyways, i had pe yesterday. we had to take our height and weight. guess what. i grew 1 cm taller!! yeah man. i was so darn happy, until ms tay said,"don't worry, you'll shrink. what's more, you're in hockey." so disappointing man. but staff said it's rubbish lah. i certainly hope so. yah, py, fiona and i went to visit staff at ttsh yesterday. she seems okay. she said she is. haha.

i hate gp. it's so dammit boring. and i don't really like my grp, im so sorry to say that. that's why i don't really enjoy gp. urghh. had training today. it was qt okay. my hits went from bad to worse. bleagh. and it is huifen's bdae today! training ended early today and we celebrated for her. but although it ended early, it ended with 2 400m sprint. i thought i was gonna crumble under my feet. my legs were all wobbly like anything. we saw de chingay procession as well!! it was qt fun, shouting and waving at de ppl on de floats. haha.

i just realised sth. I LOVE TO DAYDREAM A LOT. seriously. i always find myself staring into blank space, then waking up and not knowing what went on just a moment ago. die lah. how am i gonna concentrate on lessons? how am i gonna concentrate on that hockey ball when it's coming towards me?? i hate to daydream. i need to change this badbadbad habit of mine.

i wana pon sch tmr!! i haven't finish my hw. i think. haha, yah. anyways, im ponning a few lessons cos of my dental appt, so why not pon de whole day right. hai. but i got bio lab! ms mani will nagnagnag and kill me if i don't go. she's my nightmare. if i dream of her tmr night, it's an omen that i didn't do well for o levels. ahaha.

speaking of which, de results are coming out on fri! SCREAMMMMMMSS!!!! this is so exciting man.

i just wana take a deep breath
11:04 PM

Sunday, February 05, 2006

yo! today's sunday!! sunday's a happy day. but tmr's monday. there's sch. im so sian-ded.

went to nicholas' hse today to BAI NIAN. was supposed to make jelly. but i was so darn lazy. so too bad. ahaha. but anyways, there are a lot of stuff to eat at his hse. fona and i were like 2 super duper truper greedy pigs, pigging out on bbq pork, pineapple tarts and that spicy prawn rolls. and we played mahjong!! devin and fiona needed extra attention as they do not know how to play at all. yeps. watched de myth aft that. de DVD's pirated de! thus de image wasn't that fantastic. ahaha.

i was telling myself that i'll pon sch tmr if there isn't training tmr. and TATA! there's hockey tmr. bangs. conclusion: there's sch tmr. BORING.

i just wana take a deep breath
9:02 PM

to regina: HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY! love ya lots. ((((:

had cross country on fri. it was alright, despite de fact that i haven't been running for cross country for 3 consecutive yrs. AHAHA! when i was sec 2, it was de pop parade, and i was marching in de contingent. sec 3 and sec 4, i was doing carpark duty. haha, so im darn lucky. or am i?? anyways, i was intending to walk, but xuefen was like running, and i followed her. we started in de middle, so there were a lot of ppl in front jamming up de passageway. so angry can!! it was so difficult to cut through. argh. amazingly, de whole journey seems v short somehow. i was running along de expressway, then i saw this huge signboard signalling that this particular lane leads to thomson road. and that was de way in to de finishing line!! as in, that was almost de end of de race. i was thinking, SO FAST?? i rmbr vividly that stretch of road in to de finishing line, as youyin and i walked up and down umpteen times last yr to cheer ppl on. it was damn memorable.

had pitch training yesterday at delta. had to wake up early. i don't like!! de training was alright, cos we j1s were practising our hits only. and my hits suck! ms tay had to correct me every now and then. i bet she felt frustrated teaching me. de j2s had a friendly match against northland sec. and they lost. i mean, it's not their fault they lost. it was their very 1st match. nonetheless, they played well, in my opinion that is. yeps.

i love my hockey stick. hahahahaha.

i just wana take a deep breath
11:11 AM

Thursday, February 02, 2006

today's a dammit boring day. i slept, once again, during econs. my econs tutor never ever fails to bore me to death. had bio test. it was difficult, but i thought i managed it qt okay. I HOPE SO. i don wana fail again, cos ms mani will definitely murder me.

i came home qt early! ahaha. like finally one day. i took an afternoon nap, and when i woke up, my left calf suddenly hurt like MAD. it was muscle cramp. it cramp for so long, i almost cried!! and when i thought de pain was over, de cramp came back again. DAMN. i think it's cos of yesterday's training (din cool down properly i guess) and my sleeping posture just now (i din move, and just slept in one position). i can't even walk properly. how am i supposed to run for cross country tmr! i want to run. i have an urge to run tmr. please.......i just pray that my leg will be alright tmr. sigh.

i just wana take a deep breath
7:26 PM

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

to my VERY SUPER DUPER IRRITATING YET DAMN SMART BROTHER, if you're reading this (cos i told him my blog [stupid me] and he's telling everyone abt it)..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (((:

my brother's 13 this year. SO OLD :D

i got my hockey stick today! was contemplating whether shld i buy de stick now or not. cos it's not really confirm confirmed that i'll be staying in aj. so yah. speaking of which, results are gonna be out nxt week!! so exciting. how i wish de results will be out on monday. then i can slack for de whole of nxt week. muahaha. YAH RIGHT. i may be crying my heart out, or i may be celebrating and jumping for joy. i so hope that it's de latter.

i went back to cedar today w fona. de part As are like.......ERR. haha. they so don't look like ncc ppl. but do i look like one? oh NO. haha. i just hope that none will quit. de specs were...kinda disappointing. shan't elaborate. my successor!! BIG SIGH. ran 2 rounds arnd de sch. feels damn good. and i ran another 10 rounds during training. CLAP FOR ME! ahaha. but it's nth. there's more to come in de future.

there's cross country this fri! and im in PUMA hse. COOL. (((: de stupid thing is that de cross country is in de afternoon. maybe im so used to cc being in de morning, that's why i find it weird and dumb to have it in de afternoon. but doesn't it make more sense to have it in de morning? de morning sun's good! haha, lame. and also, we have lessons on fri till 12.45. DIAO. aj's sooooo kiasu.

i just wana take a deep breath
10:06 PM

me, and only me

pingsiew.
CEDAR NCC. aj hockey.

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